Something is amiss . . .Or maybe something is off or off-center and me, I am somewhere in the middle.Do you understand? I am stuck and looking around at the world that somehow consumes me.There is too much to see and so much to consider and at the same time; I am reminded when I … | Continue reading
1) And how would it be? A new world? A new life? A new time, made for a new form of living and a new way which is mad or madder than the madman who lives to die or dies to live.What is this? What is desire if nothing else than a spot or a […] | Continue reading
The time was sunset during an early August moment just before the sky changed.All was quiet. I was sitting in a small beach chair in a field of green grass and looking around at a small park known to me as Eisenhower.And this place too.This place dates back to the longstanding me … | Continue reading
It is amazing to me how after all the years have gone by and all the past instances and crimes and despite the aches or the pains or scars that never healed, I still have a sense of affection for the wild chaos that comes when being bad. I do. I admit to the drive […] | Continue reading
The rain is heavy outside.I suppose the rain matches the mood and the mood matches the time.At least, for me. I think now is a good time for me to get this out. The wind picked up but so has the rain. Perhaps now is a good time for me to cleanse my soul.And so […] | Continue reading
What do you miss the most? I ask this because if you miss something or if you miss anything, then there has to be a reason and regardless of what the reason is, what do you miss and what do you miss the most? I will say there is bravery in our decisions to stand […] | Continue reading
What I say nowI say without apology.So,I say this anyway and I say itplay the gameand see what happens . . . I have to say, The Old Man was right. I understand nowor should I say it “his” wayand I’ll say it like thisI understand . . .now that I am older. I understand […] | Continue reading
And I say this to you, despite the craziness of all the things around me . . . the morning is perfect.Nothing is pressing and nothing is weighing too heavy at the moment.The day is young and fresh, as if to just be born or perhaps I should say the day is born again.And for […] | Continue reading
You never forget and of course, how can anyone ever forget the times of their lives? And of course, I agree, the times of our life have changed and altered from their original state. But this is a normal thing. This is a thing that comes with age. Time moves and the glory days ar … | Continue reading
It amazes me that yes, I was blind. I was blind to the truth and blinded by the surrounding ignorance and the stupid bliss of capricious youth. I was blinded by the so-called standard and the status whores who were all too driven by the ideas of being cool and popular.I was blind … | Continue reading
And you start to wonder if there is such a thing . . .You think about the world you live in and all the ups and downs or the highs and the lows.You think.You know? You wonder about the lucky ones, or at least, I should keep this on me; and so, if this is […] | Continue reading
In the end,it all comes down to money,how much you havewho you payhow big is your houseand how much do you pay out. The idea of restartingor rebuilding your lifeand the ideaof having to start overor the word “dating” and reopening yourselfto a new ideaor a new relationship . . . … | Continue reading
I have news for you. Friends are often fair weathered and half the people who swear and promise to be there if you need them are either far away or far too busy when you need them the most.So, in all fairness to you, me or us and myself, I have to suggest this.Get used […] | Continue reading
And I go back to this idea because in all fairness, where else can I go?Where else can I go if I have no better place than this?Who else can I turn to if I have no one else?And if I have no one else, then let me turn to you here.Or, at least let […] | Continue reading
You know what??I don’t care.Not anymoreSo . . .I think I will say what I have to say and to be honest,I do not care whether you listen or if anyone else is on board with meor for the moment, I refuse to let the outside influencesdo anything to me that makes medeny my truththat [… … | Continue reading
If you want it then you have to want it.Nothing can stop this. Nothing is allowed to get in your way and nothing, no matter what it is, no matter how big the obstacle is and no matter how thick the walls might be and no matter how high you have to climb and how […] | Continue reading
This?This one was inspired by youand this?This led me to thinking about the way life isor how people try to speakand yet, no one listens to hear.They seem to only listenso they know how to respond. But this?This is for you,The victimThe heroThe truthAnd this? This is for a voicet … | Continue reading
I slide into reality like one of those old great ball players who slide into third base with hopes to lead his team to a run that wins the game.Jim Carroll said, “I just want to be pure.”I don’t know how possible this is for me. Then again, there are those who live with their […] | Continue reading
As grown as I amI am equally childlikeand immature at times,and hence, I can see this clearly nowand more clearly than beforebecause, of course;due to the benefits of hindsight, my hindsight shows me how my flawscan degrade meand worsemy actions can be humiliatingif I am being ho … | Continue reading
I am amazed . . .And more, it amazes me to see how everything changes|despite how everything is still the same.. I drove by the old house this morning.Nothing is the same and yet, not much had changed, except for meand except for the landscapes. The old bar is a deli now. I used … | Continue reading
You think you have a choice, but no. You don’t. Who you are is who you are and of course, there are reasons behind this same as there is a reason behind “us.” And so,such is the way you are, such is the way you were born and more, such are the reasons you exist […] | Continue reading
And the music?Man . . .The music has always meant everything to me.Or if not everything, the music has always meant something to me.understand? I swear there is nothing quite like the gift of sound. And, so, should I ever lose my ability to hear, then at least I will have my memo … | Continue reading
Let today be sufficient for itself is what I was told.So, okay.I will let that happen and let today be different from the day before There is an amazing way the city moves. I swear.The City moves in different phases and then of course, the fashions sway from one extreme to anothe … | Continue reading
Before you go, I just want you to know about who you are and what you mean to me. And so, before you go you should know that my love for you will never stop or be sickor become too weak to walk the world Just know that my lovewill live longer than my lifetime. […] | Continue reading
Nighttime and all is right with the world. I am dialed in and smooth at the moment, or even better, I am like the softness of good music smooth as ever beneath a starlight sky in the cobblestone section of our Downtown, New York City streets The moon is on the rise. The warmer wi … | Continue reading
A pair of shoes, a shirt,a known article of clothingand a memory that serves you wellin your future life. I watched something pure happen.I saw a father and his son at the beachyesterday.They were looking through the shallowscollecting shellsand digging for sand crabs. I saw them … | Continue reading
It’s not there now, and now, I’ll have to find what I am looking for. I’ll have to find the trail or the path or the way and so, I go and I move and I find new ways to navigate my way from here to there. Whatever that means.look up.look ahead.See? It is another […] | Continue reading
In a million years People say thisAll the time.In a million years People say how they never thoughtsomething would happen….Not in a million years Maybe a million years is not so longor maybe a million yearsis just “the here and now”and what you and I see or experienceis happening … | Continue reading
1) And you start to wonder who isn’t whoand who isn’t realand then you start to ask yourselfand you think even more . . .then you rethink about who told youthey “were there” of how they were on your sideand next, you realize who it wasand how they were never who they said they we … | Continue reading
It was advised to me that I be aware of my company. I was also advised to be mindful of who I listen to. Else, I might listen to a fool or that I might be so foolish to listen to the advice from someone who I’d never turn to. I was told that my […] | Continue reading
The breeze is soft at the momentand the previous rain made it easyfor the sunrise to take placewithout the usual humiditywhich has been with usfor the last few days. The heat is more like an analogy or at least to me, I use the heat as a symbol or moreI use this as a metaphor […] | Continue reading
It is amazing to mehow we seem to eclipse through time,half in shadows and half in the sunlightof something much bigger than our everyday life. There is more to this,you know? There is more to us than meets the eyejust like a magic trick because like the great magician sayssometi … | Continue reading
The rain came last night —I could hear the raindrops crashingon the awnings above my windowsin my living room Then, just like thatthe power went out Nice . . . I do not mind the storms or the rainand I do not mind the rainy daysand nor will I reject the momentsthat came with them … | Continue reading
I know you are out there.you . . .I always knew this toobut yes, I admit itmy faith was questioned and my doubts were mounting I am here with you nowThen again, where else would I be?Where else would I be, unless the Godshad other plansand yet, same as the driftwood and the shel … | Continue reading
There had to be another chapter, I think.And, so, I decided to pick this up from here and make do with some poetryand make do what I have instead of thinking about the things that I don’t have, or that I’ve lost. I never wanted to leave, per se, but I left just the samebecause [ … | Continue reading
I am certainly a witness and a watcher and above all else, I admit that I am someone who participates in the oldest sport of all time. This is a little and special game known as people watching. I cannot say how I look or seem or appear to anyone else. No, I do not […] | Continue reading
It amazes me to see who I am as opposed to who I used to be. Then again, I am amazed at how different life can be from what it was, this time last year.But this is life.Always changing and always throwing a curve(or two)This is us too, moving and going through different phases I … | Continue reading
I know that maybe I say this too much. Or maybe I say too much period, and this is what causes distance between me and those who I wished were closer.I know that I often talk about going back to the beginning. But this is where I am . . .I talk about the beginning […] | Continue reading
Blades from the ceiling fan spun beneath lights and flickered in shadows against the white cinder-block walls.I’ve had this dream before…I know exactly where I am.But I don’t know why and I’m not sure how I got there. The sound dulled into low volumes of electricity.All l heard w … | Continue reading
I saw the lightning bugs for the first time this season. I saw them the other night and then last night too.I love this, I view the lighting bugs as a sign that summer is about to begin. I also view them as a kind memory from my youth, which meant the school year was […] | Continue reading
In retrospect, I find myself in the contrast of my past and wondering what happened.What went wrong, and how the hell did I end up where I am?Is this an accident or just a moment of clarity.Perhaps, this means I can wake up now . . .and start overI say this not to say that […] | Continue reading
I can recall the time when I realized one of my most valuable facts. No, really. This is true.Perhaps this was caused by a moment or calm in the storm. Or maybe this was a realization that there is no lifeboat on its way. And, so, if I am to win or at minimum, if […] | Continue reading
And here we are again. I guess. I find myself in full-circle and back to where I was.I see this time of year and find myself needing to vent and needing to qualify and speak out to those who are about to embark on this journey we call life. The summer is about to unfold too […] | Continue reading
There has to be something said about the need and the ability to go absolutely crazy.Love this idea.There has to be something said about the freedom to lose oneself and to lose your mind and go safely insane.If there is such a thing.Even if this is not safe, then . . .Oh well. So … | Continue reading
America, I need to address you like this again, hopeful and hopeless and frustrated with those who wave their fist and scream for justice and anarchy or for whatever else comes in-between. I see them often too, those who call themselves the political justice warriors, and I see h … | Continue reading
I wanted to put yesterday into perspective. Or better yet, I wanted to add color so that I could find contrast in the shadows of this thing I called my youth.And, so, I had to count backwards to make this possible. Of course, counting the years that went back was enough to make m … | Continue reading
And ah, to you dear Freedom.I love you so . . . I am here to separate myself and disconnect from the powers that be. I am here to break away from the captors, and down to the mild to moderate the thefts of service, and all the way to the wardens who have mutually […] | Continue reading
I heard someone say, “I think I want a new life.”I’ve heard other people tell me that they want a new story.I get it.There was a song back in the 80’s called, “I want a new drug.” I get that too,Perhaps I date my childhood by saying this, but Huey Lewis and The News was […] | Continue reading