Took diapers to Henry’s little campus. Now at desk, chipping away at receipts. Fighting off anxiety and stress by the kind remedy of not letting myself care. A little, or lot, no.… | Continue reading
Not getting too into it, but too long since I’ve typed. Nothing Monday nor yesterday. Agina not getting too into the past few days. Lot to address and I have much in journal, but I’m he… | Continue reading
is an instructor. The journal, capturing everything…. Certain people, no longer heard. Irrelevant, no matter how much they chirp and babble and blip. On my own, now completely. No interim structure… | Continue reading
My son Jack, two years ago walking in Sonoma Valley, Salt & Stone restaurant. | Continue reading
Yesterday passed like it wasn’t. Now 7:50 AM the next day, coffee and ready for drive over the mountain. Just realized with the temps lately there could be ice. Should be interesting. Hope no s… | Continue reading
One thought then another Unexpected, driving and waiting Letting self not think, embody whim Too much of a game, pollutant Imbued in newer corners, tables | Continue reading
Got a good night’s sleep last night, Henry not kicking or head-butting or slapping me excessively. Day lightly planned. Yes I have the list I drew yesterday, but not keeping self to it, trapp… | Continue reading
Daylong date with Self starts. So. Very. Much. Needed. | Continue reading
getting ready to get kids from school. Need to vacuum the kitchen and a little in the loft, wipe down counters. I’m not relaxed, but something else. The same idea but more intense, gentle, n… | Continue reading
11:39. Meeting in 6 minutes. Should be fairly quick as my SE like to move quickly through shit. Can’t blame him. Quick power nap, won’t lie, now sipping a Diet Coke and wondering … | Continue reading
This office, I don’t want certain things and moods touching it. As in… never mind. Work, if I can be honest. I only want this desk and space and place and wall to be for this, for… | Continue reading
2-24-23 Kids at school, had a Multifamily meeting over Teams, now in office setting up opportunities in CRM for meeting with SE later. Snow on mountains in Sonoma County, or this part and driving t… | Continue reading
Thought getting out of the sower and yesterday driving to Mom and Dad’s that I want less and less as I get older. Know I’m not the only one, but I’m noting it here, today…. Reflective and learning… | Continue reading
Second cup upstairs. Moved a little money around, now stable. The new sales story, now showing me much in way of conversation this morning. Good, no rush. This morning my car said… | Continue reading
Coffee, quiet. Not a drop of music just the space heater, my little Buddha providing zen and collection this morning. Double espresso, then some coffee which I’m still sipping. Saturday, all… | Continue reading
Devils know so much And it’s on paper, no way to escape, blur Streets and doors, knock, stop Another stairwell I stop | Continue reading
Home after dentist appointment. Working next hour in downstairs/actual office. Opened a beer, why not. Wind is strong and attention-demanding. Site walks – East Bay, Walnut … | Continue reading
2-20-23 In loft. Grateful. Dinner and entered receipts, watching weather, cold on its way, a “storm” as well maybe. Tired… not sleeping well last night, today passing fast as ther… | Continue reading
The whole day, and nothing else. | Continue reading
Circling in my thoughts and stresses. Can’t help it. I’m trying. Retuning to coffee shop image and thoughts. What North Light in Cotati felt like when I was in college, and … | Continue reading
A coffee shop, not “café”. I want there to be nothing pretentious about it. Just inviting and comfortable. Where everyone goes and feels safe and relaxed, where they can forget about the type of… | Continue reading
Three poems written today, putting together a collection. Honestly this time. No title yet…. Not even thinking about a title. More and more I hate titles, but anyway… I’m assembli… | Continue reading
Kids still more than content with morning, with me, with their met requests. Looking over journal entry from yesterday, about work and movement, possible movement.. Where I am in my story, ho… | Continue reading
Done. Money set for day. $48, stretch it however I can. Drive to beach, and will pack a lunch. Parenting lessons, OJT. Kidding, just thinking aloud, or a-type. Doesn’t take … | Continue reading
Jack playing his game and going back and forth with his friends, the language getting a bit antagonistic and I tell him to be nice. He changes his tone, and I look at the time. The whole day … | Continue reading
9:14 Emma had breakfast, Henry currently enjoying his. Waffles, the same type he has at his mother’s house, “Mama waffles” he keeps saying so I know he’s appeased. Quad espresso with cinnamon… | Continue reading
Hungry and set on MY story. Try and stop me. I dare you. | Continue reading
A year ago today, 2/16/22, Little Henry, exploring, or just going in circles… either way he’s happy. | Continue reading
In the office doing a couple things before readying for bed. Moving a little money for the MAP. Keeping everything simple, singular and consolidated. Shit.. getting late. So much … | Continue reading
2:33 light lunch today. Salad and some of those blue chips. Day flying by like some fighter jet just displaying its speed and maneuvering shapes and sways. I’m with a new sense an… | Continue reading
Time for a power nap. 12:03. …….. Nap didn’t last long at all. Shot up after 20-some minutes and came back to chair. Back from Safeway a bit ago, stuff for kids and weekend with m… | Continue reading
On break. Another. Sipping coffee slow, no music. Only hum and whisper of the space heater. Interesting article on LinkedIn about staying inside the box, capitalizing on perceived… | Continue reading
The storm will pass. You have to know that. It’s not what’s meant to be permanent. At all. Seeing yourself after, your own smile and the way you look in reflective pose. Saying to yourself, “I… | Continue reading
….. 7:58 in loft office. Noticing myself getting ahead of thoughts and my immediate character, the day. STOP, I said, wrote in journal. Noticing my character shift and chang… | Continue reading
My son, turning 11 today. Picked him up a bit before 3, took him to a store to walk around and look and imagine an office together. Remember the day he was born, under that lamp as most if not all … | Continue reading
Jack, 11 now. Hard to wrap my head around the reality that in 2 years I’ll have a teenager. DON’T GO THERE, MIKE. Today is a reminder and a new layer of acknowledgement and realization… keep … | Continue reading
Turning blog into a place of meditative and positive collection. I think.. just how I’m feeling this morning, and something I read earlier really got to me.. someone dying young after living … | Continue reading
Positive ebbs in my character-edge. Change attitude and perspective on things, on everything. Taking a breath, enjoying my coffee and the jazz. Time for another cup… The day just started.&nb… | Continue reading
Home. Too tired to work, giving self the night off. Tomorrow, a restart of restarts. Opportunity – the only owning onus. | Continue reading