1-29-23 8:02 Leaving for St. Helena in about ten. More and more I think I’m going to quit these tasting room gigs. For good. I could have the whole day to myself, writing, and fin… | Continue reading
In tasting room. Set up. Drive went by too quick. So meditative and needed, that drive this morning. Walking outside to fast St. Helena air. | Continue reading
Quiet. Dinner with a friend, now alone in house… thinking about everything, the EVERYTHING meaning the kids. Siping the bottle my friend Craig sent home with me from his winery, after our noon mee… | Continue reading
After call start laundry (which I should really do now…), get in shower and prep for winery blogging appt. Talking self out of stress, anxiety… today is beautiful, and new. It’s a book beggin… | Continue reading
Up early with all three. Henry has his waffles, big kids relax. Me with coffee, thinking about two appointments I have today. My thinking in habits of compartmentalizing, arrangin… | Continue reading
Personal Essay class at SSU. One of my favorites, reasons I can’t really remember but still think about it… personal essays on wine, pictures I’ve taken— And not “personal essays”, actu… | Continue reading
Wine.. write about that. Wine and wine tasting, wine and how people act when drinking it sometimes. One of my first days in a tasting room, St. Francis, this one guy with another, and their woman… | Continue reading
1-27-23 One of the easier mornings getting kids ready and out the door. 8:54 and at nook table. Slept well last night, but still with the coffee in hand. Latte from Starbucks, whi… | Continue reading
Kids here, all three, me at peace Morning drives, earlier the better, everything I think about – have to find a way to capture, maybe with a voice record (not phone) Go further into the singl… | Continue reading
Call with Sales Engineer, looking at time… leaving in an hour and ten to get little Henry, big kids. Dnner planned, all is right with the poz loft world. Obsessed with the idea of pros… | Continue reading
Heavily. Everything about them. The small tasting rooms down the street off Conde, Café Noto down the block, some of the business I used to visit in Bel Marin Keys… just how they work and operate… | Continue reading
Already day giving me enough to do. Grateful. Still working in Nook office. Glasses on, in character. Rather than talking myself out of something like Rich said yesterday in the o… | Continue reading
Always all about them. They’re so little here… Makes me sad, but more grateful for their health and happiness, growth and brilliance and curiosity. 💕❤️💕 | Continue reading
Be patient, be strong, be true to yourself. Dad said this morning, referring to one matter, theatre which become excessively theatrical. Interesting day. Left 425 at 4:30 then to Sweet … | Continue reading
Sorry. I couldn’t resist. He’ll for sure hate me when he’s older. Hahahahahahahaha….. | Continue reading
1-24-23 One of those days that checked so many boxes, I don’t even know where to start. Chris my wine buddy just left, delivering two bottles from a local producer that needs a blogger. … | Continue reading
5 miles, over 600 calories killed. Done with dinner, 6:49. Another fast starts. Laundry going, first time at Anytime Windsor, watching the Bulls game versus… who? Hawks, Atl… | Continue reading
Like some cocky victory trot. Not sure what I’m doing for my …. Never mind. Power nap I think, though I don’t think I need one nor will fall into any kind of sleep. Looking forward to the gym la… | Continue reading
Meeting with my SE and a senior rep at 9:30. 9:15 now, finally back from taking kids to school. The house when it’s quiet feels wrong, not how it should be. Trying to get over it.… | Continue reading
I’m going to get out of the new company. I don’t much like it, nor the people, definitely not the fucking commute. So I’m noting all notes and steps in my escape. My little market… | Continue reading
Jack to be at tryouts, or now they call them “assessments”, at 1:45, Piner HS. Gave myself due date of Monday 1/23 for my expense report. Should be working on it now, but wanted a little entry an… | Continue reading
12 years ago, tonight… My mom and her mom, Grandma Zelda, at Rosso’s in Santa Rosa. Family dinner. Missing my grandma tonight. 💕 | Continue reading
Relaxed, calm, talking to self and thinking about writing, fiction and non. These times alone in this office, when I can collect and map everything in my head are like climbs up an otherworld… | Continue reading
but what it feels like. Drove to SF and back, great meeting when there, then back here for another meeting over Teams, power nap, to Oliver’s and back. Loft stocked for the babies. Again, Emma m… | Continue reading
Old shot, Jackie and Emmie in bath. When we were all together. Emma takes Jackie on the scavenger hunt, goes upstairs. He asks her questions and you can tell Emma enjoys the contr… | Continue reading
And, what startled me a bit, she already gestured toward Jack’s birthday next month, the 15th, saying she’s planning a treasure hunt here at the loft for him, where at the end he gets $11. Already… | Continue reading
Now 10:19. Where is the day going? Call with Dad earlier nearly getting me to tear, but I kept my Composition. Thought about coffee, but decided Diet Coke. Want to cut back on coffee and espres… | Continue reading
8:38. Bit of a late start, but the espresso’s getting me caught up. Feeling better about developments in the sales story…. See where it goes. Need to do more prospecting today. Like, a … | Continue reading
Noticed I posted the same pic twice. Wine glass on desk. Oh well. That’s much of postmodernism, as I see. Loving the silliness and here-and-there follies you commit. Cold outside, heat finally… | Continue reading
Opportunity…. Happiness and what makes one happy and how work factors into that, or influences it. Meeting over, 9:52. Almost all receipts entered for MAP project. Leaving in a bi… | Continue reading
First thought this morning, the business plan – Drink Coffee, Write Books, Be Happy. Took shower, shaved, made espresso, printed a couple things I need to bring somewhere soon…. Clocking int… | Continue reading
Thoughts more than inspiration. Centeredness, focus, thesis new, paragraphs.. owe Uncle Stevie a letter. I’ll write it in the morning. Working from home I’ll wake like I’m headed to One Maritime… | Continue reading
1-17-23 Behind on word count for the year. Who cares. Filled the RECORD journal, nearly. Like half a page left. Working in office tonight… no Netflix or news, any show… some… | Continue reading
I promise. Blaming my Uncle Stevie tonight for my truancy. | Continue reading
Saint Helena. Thinking about it. My walks outside, up the blog to that wine bar then the other direction just to be outside, in light rain. More meditation, collection… what I nee… | Continue reading
1-15-23 Exhausted and in a mood after day at the winery. Still feel like I’m recovering from last week’s rains and driving and site visits and other bullshit. This next week, all new, all min… | Continue reading
meditation. Maybe one more espresso shot. Rain starts again, me seeing day in front of me. Want a haircut, need to hit store for some things but it’s not urgent. Might wait. Like Mom said one t… | Continue reading
Henry requesting waffles, served. Zen… Then Jack asks for breakfast. Served. Emma should be close to her order placement. Have to go through some footage and pictures of the… | Continue reading
Already mid-month. At the last company we’d do these “mid-month check-in’s”. I looked forward to them, especially as an AE when I got the chance to download and talk to Mark. Alre… | Continue reading
No mood to write, so forcing myself after looking at old pictures on Facebook. Kids getting older, people texting, annoying me… this week has been a test of tests. Like bootcamp when yo… | Continue reading