and doing dances it’s never done. I’m grateful and in love, but more than that. Seeing the picture bigger. Henry doing well in his little class earlier, Emma saying sweet things to me when we go… | Continue reading
Maybe I noticed this before, but “What do I want” is scribbled on the page in the Bottledaux header photo. What do I want…. How do I get it. Uncle Stevie and I broached this last night. Now with… | Continue reading
12:30pm. And…. Still thinking. Coffee being sipped slow. Slow, and with meditative dote. My plan for 2023, working on some areas… not letting myself fall into any nega… | Continue reading
8:48 Still going over the conversation with my uncle. Everything he said, all his details in how he built this one house, then another, then one for his parents along the coast. Makes m… | Continue reading
New day. New EVERYTHING. Working in the kitchen today… cooking a new reality. Symbol intentional and also no intention. See what happens…. Starting with espresso, then… | Continue reading
Not sure where to start with day. Driving in rain, to and from Mountain View site. Call with Uncle Stevie from SF to Sweet T’s.. now at poz loft, sipping a zin after sending uncle anot… | Continue reading
Locking self in, NOW Stories told from an uncle Day now loved, mended. | Continue reading
Zen Collection Rest Me New plan | Continue reading
that doesn’t serve me. No more compromises. Only what will elevate my EVERYTHING. | Continue reading
In SF. And here I am, HERE, on California Street, today. ❤️ | Continue reading
2:40 Back at loft after quick outing with the kids, sports store then back. Henry acting moody like his writer father so I thought he wanted sleep but looks like he just didn’t want to be out… | Continue reading
And as soon as I put toys away the little poet takes them out and pushes them along to loft floor to all corners. Of course, I say to myself. But smile, laugh, and envy his intention to play and … | Continue reading
All three in my room last night, a little spooked by the thunder & lightening the storm brought with it. Jack in my bed still, Emma on the mattress beside, still. Told them today is a day of … | Continue reading
3:24 Henry down for a nap, fell asleep with him for a while now back in loft with big kids. When at Safeway, got what we needed. Big kids more than helpful and Henry was calm, no outbur… | Continue reading
Don’t write for 48 hours, or more. Live more write less if at all during that time. Then, when everything is collected and cooked, put it to page. See what happens. We often think we always nee… | Continue reading
Vino and lights, lighting up the story and show that everything around you’s to be slowly sipped – no sense in rushing, EVER. | Continue reading
Again, didn’t closely read my uncle’s letter but saw enough to be moved one way and another, then another, and want to change things in my habits. Specific points and pulses. All for th… | Continue reading
To bed a little late, so slept in a bit. Emma waking a little under and hour ago and just now having her breakfast, Kix and orange juice her usual. Decided to make myself breakfast this morning, t… | Continue reading
some shopping for kids. Weekend-ready. No music, enjoying peace. Leaving to get all three mini-characters in a bit. Jackie wanted me to pick him up at 4, but I just can’t do it with everything … | Continue reading
10:22 Re-drawing my life’s map and contour… the reality, the Now. Everything written. Thinking, for the rest of my life….. this will be…. BREAK. Back in a bit. Just to step away, … | Continue reading
Jack and Emma being so helpful this morning… with everything from waking on time and getting dressed, breakfast although Little Mama didn’t eat much of the waffles I heated for her. Anyway, they b… | Continue reading
Listening to the rain, still hear it. Meeting at noon, then a call at 1:30. Getting kids around 5, leave here just after 4. Fasting till dinner. Weights by desk, do 50. QUIC… | Continue reading
8:35 touching down in downstairs office. I say that like I have another. I should. Too cold down here, and I want this room to be a showroom, I think. What you first see, a look into the charac… | Continue reading
Dream gives me images immediately, right now while I type this, delivering more, more music.. whispering and reading stories I’m to write. The thousand words a day will be easy to touch with … | Continue reading
Discovered something. Wrote it in journal. So beside myself excited and elevated that I may need to go for a drive. Containment of character and this new possible contour, I don’t… | Continue reading
Happiness design, practice, thoughts… writing it the way it should be. Simplicity in morning…. Drive back from the city yesterday, not so bad but just enough traffic to annoy me. Didn’… | Continue reading
And it’s supposed to push through today and I think into tomorrow and Saturday? Did I read that right? On my second espresso. Call planed for later, but other than that no much to day. I don’t … | Continue reading
Too tired. Shouldn’t be focused on the number, just write everyday. Right? Could fall asleep now. Not sure I’ll make it till 10. Am I driving to SF tomorrow or not. Don’t know. Stressing me out. I’… | Continue reading
Taking my time Talking to self No rushing My clock my story my freedom We put so much in our head Why What’s the return Returning me to peace and ease Watching the world around me rush in hours Cal… | Continue reading
Hopeful peace looking Coffee and San Francisco New table love sips | Continue reading
Waiting for a meeting. Someone in the industry. Working from home tomorrow. Easy day so far, feeling schooled by my own attitude and reactions. | Continue reading
Maybe time to fold some laundry. That in no way sounds enjoyable but it has to be done. Another aims for the new year, doing more that of what to which opposed or afraid. The vineyard walk yester… | Continue reading
10:35 late start for sure, so need to move quick. Set timer for 1 hr 10 min for cleaning, the ten minutes is just to settle in, do some writing, notes, maybe enter some receipts. The la… | Continue reading
Healdsburg, CA. Taking myself in a date before the week starts…. Self-care, making more a priority in ‘23. ❤️🖊☮️😊‼️💯 | Continue reading
I think. Her brother Chris coming over later to watch the 9ers game. Laundry again, shower, and no overthought. Writing everything. Simplification in this new year like I never have. Second yea… | Continue reading
Back from walk to Noto… saw a hawk in that tree, wanted to take a picture and got closer but he wasn’t having it. Sat in the café for a bit, enjoying this last day…. quiet. In Nook now at the… | Continue reading
7:48 AM. Next two days off. Everything I need get done, get done. In Nook, thinking about the year… big points… leaving Sonic, moving into the loft, other turns. 2023, only one ai… | Continue reading
Last day of the year. Up early with Henry… left bed at 6:50 something I think. 7:24 now, my little girl still upstairs asleep in her bed. Laundry, later. First thing after … | Continue reading
SMB envelop started. Not sure of the small business selection, like with the last envelope I had to dip into and eventually consume because of the …. Raining still. Pay a couple bills…. Note… | Continue reading
20-some minutes till meeting. Henry tells me he’s hungry again, I somewhat laugh as he says something after explaining himself but can’t quite interpret my little Beat. Shifting mind to a new… | Continue reading
Kids up, Henry demands breakfast, I try to work in the nook. Distracted, interrupted…. No matter, the day is the day. Sip espresso, ready for another one. Old pictures, vineyard walks, … | Continue reading