I’m not sure when this was.A long time ago, I suppose.This must’ve beenbut when, I don’t remember. It must have been a realization, which came in waves, like the rides, rolling in and changing the face of the sandseroding the coast of lifeand redefining the way I saw things Long … | Continue reading
There’s a word I hear all the time.It’s a thing too, a way to be, and maybe even a lesson for others or an artform of living.The word is called selflessAs in, no concern for selfIt’s not about “Me.”There’s no “I”SelflessAs in no need for repayment As in without regard for self pr … | Continue reading
So, I have been me for a very long time. In fact, I have been me, all of my life, since the day I was born. Surprising, right?I know . . .It’s a shocker. However, I have also lived my life a certain way for a very long time; and with no regrets on this […] | Continue reading
I’m not ready to let this journal end,. At least, not yet. But more importantly and more for you to understand, this is my reach from a place here in fact, I have either been held captive or been set free. In part, my efforts are to explain ideas and thoughts, and, with hopes to … | Continue reading
(Written respectfully for the McGinley family) Thank you for teaching me – I come from this. I am this and because I am, I want to be this especially to the best of my ability because behold the worker, the doer, the prime mover of the world the one who aches and hurts and yet, [ … | Continue reading
I would like to begin this with my hat in hand,humble as I can be and with all I have, I want to thank the artists who’ve taught meinspired me, opened my eyes to allow me the understanding that it’s alright for me to be who I amand that in my formI do not have […] | Continue reading
Be advised, your words have more power than you think.Be aware that you have more might than you believe you possess, and in your stance to fight back, the remedies to your weakness are as follows:if your will and intent can outweigh our fears and intimidationsyou can withstand a … | Continue reading
It was not the first time I had ever walked through electric doors and motorized gates that shut with a loud slam, that sounded like a loud exclamation point, which exclaimed about the absence of freedom. Also, it was not the first time that I was escorted or led through a hallwa … | Continue reading
Let the drums beat.Let the rage come out. Let the music take over and let the foot hit the pedalso you can drive offas fast as you can and just go. Let the sun come up. Let the road be empty and the mind go clear.Let it goWhatever “it” isOr, whatever this means to you […] | Continue reading
What does it mean to be a pioneer?What does it mean to be the first of your kind, to lead without being led, or to step away from the predictions that tell you, “You can’t do it,” and yet, when you go ahead and do it anyway –See? So then,what does it take to defy […] | Continue reading
It is quiet now. Then again, of course it is – quiet, I meanThe sun is up. It’s Sunday.I can see the sunlight passing through the trees and everything else is silent, like it’s supposed to beI suppose . . . What I do now and what I say here,of course, I hope this is […] | Continue reading
I remember seeing a picture –maybe we spoke about this?or, maybe we didn’t;however, I think the relevance of this picture is true to life. I think that the picture is brilliant –no wait; the picture is powerfuland the reason why is the picture is calledThe Power of Stepping Away. … | Continue reading
We have entered into these negotiations for life with the best intentions. We are here to negotiate the terms of our next chapter, and, therefore, going forward, we have to come to a clear agreement, and therefore collectively, we have to come to a decision that from this moment … | Continue reading
I go back to those dreams again, in youth, but not young and yet, I am somewhere at a place where I experienced somewhat of a rebirth, like life coming back to us, orlike springtime, when the northern hemisphere comes alive again and all that was wilted and gray, returns to color … | Continue reading
Here I am in the soft hue of morning, the sun is on its way, and the sky is about to change,which is pretty of course. Then again, everything changes. Everything moves, even when we are still, all of us are moving, continuously, ongoing, and endlessly around on this big thingI ca … | Continue reading
And, I begin where I am . . .I’m standing here at the face of a new day, waiting for the sun to prevail, and looking to make a move or two, just to keep my hopes alive. I am north of where I was and yet, there’s a piece of me, southbound, where the […] | Continue reading
1) The horse moved through flesh that evening, and another soul forfeited its right to the kingdom the next morning, just to feel a bit closer to heaven Understand? Before next, it was sunrise and in the absence of presence, there would be no recollection of anything so perfect, … | Continue reading
I remember what I thought when I got into this ride.I know what this trop began and I know where I was when I agreed to these terms.I remember the promise I made to myself, which was more than just to keep myself accountable. When I began, I decided that if I was going to […] | Continue reading
I want to be crazy. Yes, absolutely crazyI want to be perfectly crazy, like we used to be,way back in the day before life took its turn and age took away the chaos. I want to be like we were, back when adrenaline and rebellion would pulse through our veinsand back when were our f … | Continue reading
There is no then, only now, and now that we find ourselves in the fold of something new, or now that we seesomething developing right before our eyes, we look back and wonder about what our life would be like, if only we paid attention. I say this while looking at the sky, which … | Continue reading
Whether I am right or wrong is truly of no consequence. Besides, life is more than we think and half of the time, in fairness, nobody knows about who was right or wrong. In fact, in most cases, all we are is varies of opinion Then again, at some point, we’ll all find out the […] | Continue reading
This book of prose has been my way of setting the clocks back, just so I can catch up with myself by returning to the basic aspect of what I started this journey. I am looking for something. I am searching for something which is right here, and with me now, and yet; there is […] | Continue reading
Knowing If we didn’t know, or, if we didn’t have the capacity to understand or the ability to see, deeply, or at least deeper than the surface levels, and if we were blind in the sense that we couldn’t see the world around us or know about the weight from the different calamities … | Continue reading
Perhaps I am the same age now as my teachers were when I was a child.I was young and precocious. And them, they were older and less hopeful, tired, less than patient and more than anxious to get out of a life that they never seemed to bargain for. Perhaps I understand more about … | Continue reading
I What I am about to share with you is in some ways career suicide because while I supposedly work in an updated world of diversity, equity, and yes, inclusive ideas that are supposed to help bring people together instead of marginalize or separate us as different – the truth is, … | Continue reading
If I am and always was then in fairness to myself then I am and always will be the sum of myself, which isadded to the masses of thousands of thoughts and therefore, I am the one who I’ve always thought myself to be Endlessly – I am a series of rooms in the mind, […] | Continue reading
Section 1 – There are so many different versions of me, which at this point, I suppose it’s hard to keep up with all of me – at least, for me it is. There’s the old me and the younger me. There’s the new me and the me who I want to become. But then,there’s […] | Continue reading
Verse 1: For the record, I do not condone or support the way “I was’Or the way I “used to” be. I laugh about this now. I can do that because I’ve matured someat least a little. Or, maybe only slightlybut at last, I have learned to laugh at myselfat my pastat the things I […] | Continue reading
And . . . So . . .I suppose this might be personal. Maybe this is too personal,Then again, what isn’t personal? What is anything worth if there is no substancenor earth nor depth nor sound nor meaning behind the words we chose? What is anything worth if we deem it as otherwise wo … | Continue reading
Now, here’s a thought to remember . . .I know that perhaps I paraphrase but in each is their own internal strife or struggle, which means that somewhere, someone or something has gone wrongand in the magnificent journey of life, unfoldingwe find ourselves at the doorstep of diffe … | Continue reading
Sometimes you have to dig down deep in order to let go. Sometimes, I feel.Sometimes, I want.Sometimes, I wish and sometimes I weep, and oftentimes, I wonder. Sometimes I move in circles to come back and overlap where I began to see how far I’ve come or to recognizewhere I’ve bee … | Continue reading
My head smiles at the sight of the winds.I can find myself here, happily empty without the need to fill or be fulfilled and instead, or more obscurely, to be found in the happiness of pure detachment, as if to be away from the grind, away from the passive/aggressiveness of our da … | Continue reading
Let’s just call this what it is, which is life in our head or a place in the mind which at times, can be unrelenting or unmercifulat best.Let’s call this what is it . . .Why not? Life in our head, which goes on far more often than we realize because if we think about […] | Continue reading
Head south, due west, and go . . .I find myself on the verge of a ramble, which might only be something to me; however, if this is for me then so be it – let this be me and therefore, if you’d like I can share this with you so that together, I can […] | Continue reading
It was forever ago, it must be.The younger days, the angst, the energy and the deep wells of tomorrow which flowed so deeply and freely enough so that you’d swear there’d always be enough time for later –or tomorrow. We had more to fight in us back then. We fought harder and with … | Continue reading
i I hear this certain narration or a voice from within, somewhat speaking for me,telling my storybut of course, from the heart. I have these ideas,.They have been with me for as long as time has kept me alive, which by today’s account, I am alive far longer than I realize. Perhap … | Continue reading
At some point, you are going to see things in a different light because at one point (or another) you are going to be away from the people who shaded your view. You are going to see things, much clearerand in a much different waybecause experience is going to brighten your highwa … | Continue reading
They say the mind is just a record of the past.But if the past is gone then we have to let this goor do we? I find there are times which have failed to be releasedand me, I find myself diving into the unnecessary.I find myself recounting the past or relitigating something that is … | Continue reading
So, it’s just another day.Right?It’s another day in the maze. Get up. Get dressed.Wash your face. Dust off the sleep that you didn’t get.Go to work. Punch in.Pull your share and finish your shift. There’s more to it than this.There’s a world out there too . . .There’s a great big … | Continue reading
Suffice to say that happiness comeswhen we become comfortable with our own ideas or with what we seewhen we see ourselves. Suffice to say that comfort comes when we can see our reflection in the mirror and be happy . . . Suffice to say the body I am born in is the same body that … | Continue reading
I I want to believe – You know?Not because “I have to”Or because “I should” or because there’s a doctor out there standing in the hallway talking about hopewith a helpful diagnosis, a clipboard in hand, white coat, stethoscope around the neck, a pocket protector with a few pens … | Continue reading
We are experiencing life like never before. This. Right here.See it?The upcoming hints of the warmer months where again, the streets of New York and the Avenues, or the cobblestone hideaways will tend to reveal itself once moreand show a little skin. We are on the verge of a gre … | Continue reading
Sometimes,I swearYou look around and see the world as it’s happening, right there before your eyes, liveand in person You can’t believe what you see (or hear)taste, or feel.Sometimes, I swear, it’s like I see from the eyes of a childOr perhaps, I’m only childish, in which case I … | Continue reading
I find that yes, it’s true.We lose ourselves to the different brands of comparison. We segregate opinions by the so-called value of wealthor experience or the lack thereforeand therefore, we put value in places where we suppose that hey,this must be best, right? I have neither tr … | Continue reading
I am, in essence,or essentially, I am this –I am working and growing yet I am looking backover my shoulder now (of course)because the symptoms are still in my rearview mirror. The sea is the place for me.No, wait –I have dreams of mountaintops tooand daydreams of places I’ve neve … | Continue reading
1) I have spent years of my life,wondering about what I can bewho I will be, what am I or who do I want to be – What is this?Normal?Curious . . .Common? I have spent much of my life, trying to make up for the past but lo and beholdthe past is no longer […] | Continue reading
This is a fight you can’t see and yeteverybody knows.Everyone knows what’s going on.Everybody hears.Everybody sees. Just watch the news.They’ll tell youEach day, there’s something else and what?Does anything change?Does everything stay the sameOr . . .Is the war getting worse? I … | Continue reading
If I am to find myself, then I will have to search in places, which I have never seennor ever dared to look. If I am to find me, then I will have to explore my truth but more, I will have to understand that to define myself this means to design myselfwhich means that […] | Continue reading