It is morning, of course, and I am here as usual (of course). I am still looking. I am still searching or hunting and hoping to find something more than just an average thing because I want more than just an average or everyday life. There is snow on the ground, which is nice to … | Continue reading

To be honest, I do not believe that I am so different from anybody else. I have my differences too, But I am not so different. At least, not at my core, or at the root, which I find to be the platform or the base of who I am. We all have this. We […] | Continue reading

I am a watcher. I see the world at times, like now, and I see things, almost randomly but more importantly, I find that I take notice of the signs around me. I find that the timing is perfect. It is easy to notice the typical things on the New York City trains or to […] | Continue reading

We all know that life happens. Life comes with twists and turns, and even more; life comes with peaks and valleys and of course, when we least expect it, life shows up to remind us that we can either be strong, or we can cower and hide or be weak and submit.Life happens.We all kn … | Continue reading

We are not the young soldiers retreating from a war that never existed. No, that part of us is over. However, there are times when the mercury rises, and the pulse moves too quickly. I can see how this changes us, or causes concern.There are times when the weight moves in, and th … | Continue reading

We all have a side or two, which no one sees, and no one knows about. We have thoughts and ideas, and dreams, and of course, we all have our own rituals and routines. We all have our own way of doing things, which become automatic or natural to us.We don’t have to think about […] | Continue reading

I am later than usual today, but then again, I am not wearing a watch and there is no reason for me to be on a schedule, which means late or not, I am right on time and exactly where I need to be.It is Sunday, just after 10:00am and the morning sky has been […] | Continue reading

You have something of mine. then again, it might be safe to say that perhaps, I have something of yours as well. But don’t worry. I’m keeping my promise and yes, I promise to keep this between the two of us, but more, I promise to keep this safe. I give you my word. Just […] | Continue reading

Look around you. Do you see?This is life. Normal, everyday life. Of course, we see things differently, you and I. We have different experiences and different backgrounds. We come from two different worlds and somehow, you and I have ended up here together, as in at the same time, … | Continue reading

When there is nothing, no sound or distraction, and when the quiet is so loud that all you can hear is the emptiness, or when you hear the ringing in your ears to fill the absence if noise, and when there is no one around, and when there is no one to speak to, and […] | Continue reading

What does it mean to win? Or what does it mean to achieve? Or what is victory? What is the secret?Or is there one?What does it take to keep going, win or lose?Or what does it mean to wake up and show up, even when the odds are against us? Or what about this?What about […] | Continue reading

It is early, of course, and the rain has made plans to stay with us for most of the week. It is an odd time of year for me. Christmas.Then again, I’m sure this is an odd time for a lot of people. I’m sure there are those who are alone or have no reasons […] | Continue reading

I admit to being one of those people who are up late at night and scrolling through the social media feeds. I am often awake and looking at some of the more positive quotes too, and some of them come at the right time. Or more to the point, I will use last night as […] | Continue reading

I have heard people talk about their natural highs or ways to release endorphins and help improve their moods. However, and I have to admit that in all fairness, I never believed these things.I never believed in the so-called natural highs, at least not as much as I believed in t … | Continue reading

I have read stories about the starving artists. I read about how they lived most of their lives unheard of or unknown. I have read stories from different poets and writers about their years of rejection, and through it all, I can relate to the aches and the pains. I can relate to … | Continue reading

We are moving towards the end of the year, which means that we are closer to a day where the world changes, at least for the moment. People are kinder. Families gather and people exchange gifts, and for the while, there is a spirit of hope and goodwill to all.There is a song that … | Continue reading

My whole life . . .I have always wanted to be someone.Of course, my words may come up short when I say this, but I have always wanted to be someone. I want to do something more than just live an average life. I have always wanted to do more than an average or an […] | Continue reading

As the saying goes, if you don’t know, then you just don’t know which is fine, by the way. No one says this out loud but it’s okay to see the world differently. It’s okay to be different and the truth is different does not mean better or worse. No, different just means different. … | Continue reading

They say that something happens. They say that a moment comes, and perhaps this comes in different ways for different people. But a moment comes when your eyes are open. You see things from a deeper perspective. Or perhaps this is what they call a spiritual awakening, and for the … | Continue reading

I don’t suppose you remember me, or maybe you do. After all, I am the same as I have always been. I might have changed as far as my height is concerned. I’ve grown some. I’ve gained weight and lost weight. I have moved from town to town, and I’ve had a few different jobs. […] | Continue reading

There has to be something.You know?There has to be a way, or an exit, or some kind of porthole that leads us to a brief station in time where all is fine and tension disappears.Maybe there’s a way to extend this. Or maybe we can find out how to recreate life to become something m … | Continue reading

The truth of the matter is everyone has a breaking point. We all have a limit or threshold or tolerance, and yes, we can only take so much.The mind and body are intertwined.Pain hurts, but pain can be relative. We all have limits. We all have a line in the sand. We have standards … | Continue reading

I have heard from every kid or streetwise punk who swears “don’t worry. I know what I’m doing.”Everyone says the same thing.Don’t worry. I know what I’m doing. I said the same thing. I swore this many times.Don’t worry.I know what I’m doing. For the record, everyone says, “That w … | Continue reading

It doesn’t seem real to me anymore. My past or my younger life. I am far removed from those days. I have memories of when I was young. At the same time, I have grown to the point where I question my memories now. I question if memory is real or a liar or, at […] | Continue reading

I want to find that place or that great arrival, like when someone arrives from a plane in the center of paradise. I want to feel the warmth of an island breeze across my skin when the sun is high and the air smells from the turquoise sea. I want to build myself in this […] | Continue reading

I am one of two things on a daily basis. I am either a step closer towards an answer, or I am one step further away. I suppose this is depending upon my direction or the journey I choose.Perhaps this is so for all of us. Of course, the world is an amazing place. I […] | Continue reading

You have to be fearless.You have to be ready, willing, and able to face what comes. No matter what.There can be no more excuses. There’s no more room for lies and as for opening up to the ideas of self investigation, or when we talk about facing the music, we have to understand t … | Continue reading

I like to feel good.Don’t you?I like the idea of something strong enough to come along and stop the anxiety or quiet the stress in my head.I like the idea of something that can counteract or reverse the tides, and when things are to heavy, we can take a dose, and just like that, … | Continue reading

If we have to talk about it, then we have to talk about everything. Or like I was told; you have to get to the bottom before we can get to the top. Then again, I was also told that we have to hit bottom before we can stand up again. And sometimes, we have […] | Continue reading

Can I tell you about the best high I’ve ever felt?In all fairness, you should already know about this because you were there, at least, in more ways than you can imagine.Then again, you are me and I am you and we have always been one and the same. Or so I hope.You have always […] | Continue reading

Rain is falling, which is a good thing, at least I think so.And yes, I love it this way. It’s raining outside and all is quiet.I think we can talk best on days like today.But rain falls for more than one purpose.I have been told about the dryness and the possibility of fires whic … | Continue reading

I suppose I have always wanted to be this way. As in, the way I am now or the way I am here, when I am alone or here with you. I never wanted to be tough or to be so brave or brazen or as if to walk or be without shame,Besides, who is […] | Continue reading

Who wants to be common? Who wants to be plain? Or who wants to be ordinary with nothing about you to stand out or to be bright or noticeable?Who wants to be boring or humdrum? Who wants to be unwanted to the point where your life is about as about as interesting as a mandatory [… … | Continue reading

Ah, youth. Or should I say rebellious youth? Or maybe I should call this my crazy youth or the wild times, or wild as ever, at least they were to me, or so they seemed.I was young once. This might have been a long time ago, or another lifetime. Or maybe this was another person, [ … | Continue reading

I have been searching for something for so long. This is an answer and a solution. But also, I have been searching for a remedy. I have been looking for response to an otherwise sense of being. I want something “more.” I want something better.I want to feel . . .This is more than … | Continue reading

I have been thinking of a word that escapes me. However, there are times when this word comforts me, depending upon moments in my life. I am thinking about the word euphoria or how this exists in the mind and the body. I have felt this way. I can swear to this.I think this is […] | Continue reading

I have decided to switch the format. At least, for today.I am not here to talk about tricks of the trade or secrets or anything of the sort, No, I think now is a good time for revelation and to openly share my sentients from the heart. I am a fan of this world. I […] | Continue reading

Perhaps the best advice I’ve ever been given is the same advice that I fail to listen to.I suppose this is how it goes with good advice.“Stay out of your own way.”I swear this is great advice. Stop digging the hole deeper.And sure, we all know what to do. We know about the right … | Continue reading