I started reading Fulghum when my Father, The Old Man, was dying in the hospital back in December of 1989. This began when I noticed the book at my The Old Man’s bedside. The book was entitled, All I Need to Know I Already Learned in Kindergarten.I can say this book was life savi … | Continue reading
A.J. and I decided to play a game which was not unlike most of the reckless games that teenagers play. This was a game that the crazy kids play when they’re drinking shots that will inevitably make them sick.And yes. We did get sick.I suppose the game of quarters was the initial … | Continue reading
There is a little known truth or fact about me and my life, which of course is true because why else would I tell you?There is something about me which is as true as anything else in this life. I am more than one person and more than three and more than my own private […] | Continue reading
I wonder what kind of feelings it would bring to have any gift of your choice. Any gift you can think ofI don’t mean just a regular gift or something that can be found in a catalog, on a shelf, or on a rack in a store.No.A gift that goes beyond measure or even a […] | Continue reading
It is early on a Sunday morning. The sunrise is new to the sky and the world is quiet like a church before members of the clergy arrive to prepare for the congregation. The sun is up and so am I.I am driving west to say the least and making my way into “The City […] | Continue reading
I have no real memories from when I was small, which is not true to the letter but true in the sense that my memories are distorted.I would say that my early memories are more like pictures of things which I know happened because I was there. At the same time, age and the eventua … | Continue reading
1) I suppose this is nothing more than another “note to self,” because of course . . . who else am I writing to, other than you? There is no way but up from here.Or so I’d like to believe.And soI don’t know muchbut I know the summer is about to show its face. Thankfully. […] | Continue reading
I understand that I say that I am being honest with fiction. And yes, this is true.But everything that I have put here is true.I understand that I change names, dates, people, places and things to protect the less-than innocent, including me. But as fictional as tis is; all of th … | Continue reading
I want to see myself somewhere far from here, lost and found, and sitting in a little place with coffee and a small breakfast.I want to sit down facing the scene of a small town where people smile and say simple things like “hello,” or “good morning,” for no other reason than to … | Continue reading
I am somewhere now, too far gone from a loaded package, which is where I used to be. I am far from this and further from yesterday, but I do recall.I remember.I used to know all too well about tiny envelopes that were packaged with printed names and filled with a beautiful high. … | Continue reading
And if there is no way out, then there is no way out.And, so?What do we do now?We have to either make due with what we have or we have to learn to adapt and to adjust. I saw something this morning on social media, which I found brilliant enough to reshare on my own […] | Continue reading
I agree when people tell me that hate is taught. Yes, I agree and I can see what these teachings do for us.Look around. Can you see it?Hate is everywhere.So is love but one would have to learn how to look better and how to differentiate between the two. I believe that hate is a [ … | Continue reading
I used to think the trick behind staying out of trouble was not to get caught. Or is this the case of me stating the obvious.Don’t get caught are often someone’s famous last words.Either that, or maybe the other trick to this would be to have a great attorney because, of course, … | Continue reading
I know who you are and I know where you used to hide. But even more, I know the reasons why you hid yourself, even from me.I know why you used to hate the saying, “No matter where you go, there you are!” because no matter how you ran or how you hid, you could […] | Continue reading
They say that one should dip their toes and test the waters before plunging in.I do not have that kind of mindset. At least, not when it comes to certain curiosities and compulsions. They say that one should crawl before they learn how to walk but in all fairness, my mind moves t … | Continue reading
Is it possible to say that I am not me and you are not you?Of course.We are not us at the moment. Then again, I am not sure about me, or you, us. Or wait . . .I am not sure about anyone anymore and to be clear, there are times when I am not […] | Continue reading
There has always been something different about the sunrise to me. Always . . .This is certainly true after the long nights that went behind me. This is also true after the bad nights that went either sideways or backwards, to which I say that I am sure we have all had our share … | Continue reading
I heard a word which made me think that maybe I’m not so crazy. Or maybe I am crazy and this is just me.Crazy as always and guilty as charged.Maybe I am crazy in the best ways possible and likely so, perhaps I am only crazy enough to believe in things like daydreams and fantasies … | Continue reading
Save the notes, kid.It’s time for you and I to begin.It is time to start over again.They say it is always best to go to someplace familiar, or as it is with me in this case, I have to go back to where I started. The beginning.Or maybe I should just retrace my steps. You […] | Continue reading
You can’t care anymore.You just can’t. You can’t look to please everyone and when you do, then what?What happens next? You can’t care about who comes or goes or who pays attention and who stays around long enough to make a difference.It is true what they say. Yes.You have to save … | Continue reading
There it was again. Another dream about me in my other lifetime. And there I was, small again, a kid, and afraid of the old things that used to scare me when I was too scared to defend myself.I remembered the way things were. And I can still smell the old smells, like my Mother’s … | Continue reading
I suppose the ideas of doubt can be debilitating. Then again, the feelings of worry are real to me and hence, life without you is strange enough, let alone life on the fly is just life on the fly.Or am I out of my mind again?Am I too vague again or too crazy this morning?I […] | Continue reading
It would be the same to me if you and I walked down the street and went a different way. In fact, it would be all the same to me if you and I walked away and came back to the same places we used to meet and feel like total strangers.Yes. I agree.The world […] | Continue reading
Ah, and to you . . .You are my greatest joy as well as my greatest and heaviest downfall. You are my temptations and my easy fix. At the same time, nothing is easy about this, or about me or about how and who I am at the moment.You are my drive for the feel […] | Continue reading
Dear Regret You and I have known each other for as long as I can remember. In fact, i am sure that you knew me before i had the words or the language to call you my oldest friend. That is, if you are a friend.And let’s face it, friends to do not let friends […] | Continue reading
Dear Amends, I know that I have to meet you halfway, or all the way, if I am going to be true to this.I have to go all the way now, even if no one accepts me (or this) and even if I remain unforgiven, I still have to bend at the knee and be […] | Continue reading
Dear Angels Above The sunrise was something different this morning. Amazing, I say.This was beautiful, of course, which is not unlike you. But the sunrise today was different, just the same.Maybe this was a message for me. Or maybe this was an offering of some kind. Or maybe this … | Continue reading
Dear Devil You Know. It is another morning and the opposition and tension is mounting. But you already knew this.Then again, the tension is always thick enough to be cut with a knife. I know.There is always someone or something out there, looking to pull their tricks.I know that … | Continue reading
How far do we have to go to find out that we’ve gone too far and lost our way?I ask this because above all things, I wonder why we fight with the ones we love the most.Why?Why argue?There are better ways for us to spend our time. Why not see things for the way they […] | Continue reading
I guess my question to you is where did the time go?Where has the time gone and when did everything change? How did we go from this to that or that to this?I don’t know. . .Or is this all too vague to ask you while heading to work in the morning on a westbound […] | Continue reading
I think the worst feeling out of any feelings are the ones that make us believe that something is wrong with us. You know?Either we don’t belong or maybe we don’t fit in. Or maybe we are too compromised and something about this so-called match is subpar or subject to fail because … | Continue reading
I agree when people tell me that days should never lose their meaning. However, there are days that come with titles or certain affiliations that come with different meanings and connections. There are birthdays and anniversaries. There are holidays or days that took place and ch … | Continue reading
I remember trying to gather my thoughts, or at minimum; I wanted to gather my sanity and find out how to maintain at least a semblance of self and appear sane. But I am not sane. I am not crazy or so crazy because I would rather believe that love is real or that love […] | Continue reading
And then one day, you just let go. Like, wow . . .And suddenly all is well.Be advised, however, that the day does not always come quickly and the trips around the world do not come easily. But rest assured, a morning comes and somehow, the sunrise looks different. You see yoursel … | Continue reading
I always say the same thing. If you don’t know then you won’t know. Or if you don’t know then I guess you can’t know, which is fine because this is not to say that I or you or anyone else is better or worse. Not at all.This is only to say that sometimes, the […] | Continue reading
Where does the time go?It’s hard to think about this but yesterday was your birthdayI guess it’s true what they say. Time flies. No one ever knew your real age. Or so you’d tell us. And maybe this is true. Maybe you lied about your age for so long that even you forgot how old […] | Continue reading
Good morning. I hope and trust that this find our spirits at a good time and that my letter serves a purpose for you.I was up again, last night. Of course, this is nothing new for me or for you.But such are battles we face. I was told about the idea that perhaps I should […] | Continue reading
I should say before I say anything, but yes, I am a window seat guy . . .I have never traveled on a train elsewhere or outside the country. I have never seen what Europe has to offer, and maybe this will change for me. Or perhaps one day, I will take a train through […] | Continue reading
Nothing hit in last night’s attack.But this is common with imaginary wars.I know.Today is Sunday and the morning was more than I expected. The sky was blue and everything was green. The trees, the grass, the leaves, and all the colors of Earth are alive in springtime and showing … | Continue reading
Good morning, my valued enemy.I would not know what to do without you. However, and in the meantime, I figured I would send you this notejust to keep the peace . . .. The winds are changing today and the rain might fall, which I assume will throw off the scent of our dogs.This me … | Continue reading
Hey you . . . Are you ready for some honesty? There will come a time and no one will be there to help or save you. This has happened to us before, no?Some people will live in the wrong place with the wrong people, just to keep from being alone.And they will lie about […] | Continue reading
And so we skipped along, like two kids, grown and reliving the ideas of what it means to be young and to feel alive. Nothing in the world is as freeing or as redeeming as this feeling.I write this to you, or my future you to which one day I am hoping that this becomes […] | Continue reading
I think like anyone else does.I’d like to be free. I’d like to get away. I’d like to take a trip or maybe find somewhere that I could rest and not think so much.I’m sure that you understand. I know that you have been through things like this before too. Everyone has.We all go thr … | Continue reading
I have a question for you.How do you let go? How do you detach or how do you disconnect when something inside of you refuses to let go?How? I still dream.Then again, I think you know this. I think about places, like Islamorada or The Keys, which I have never seen or been to. Thes … | Continue reading
We are rounding another corner, you and I. More happens each day and sometimes, too much happens. Am I right?And this always sees to happen, all at once. I agree. I agree that our plate is full. I agree that the tension can be thick, at times, or like now.See? It is quiet now. Th … | Continue reading
It is morning here in Purgatory. They say the rain should hit us by this afternoon, but I don’t know these things.The sunrise was kind and nice enough to make me believe that today would be better spent elsewhere or doing elsewise.I’m sure you understand.I’d rather be doing anyth … | Continue reading
Here it is, a new world now. Or I can say here it again because the word is ne every day.It is morning and the sun was kind enough to shake off yesterday’s clouds. I think that’s a good thing. I think it’s good to shake off the old business that was left behind. I […] | Continue reading
Dear you . . .And you too . . . The morning was interesting to say the least. I am not well in the sense that I can feel something in my body. And I don’t know if this is a change on the way. I don’t know if the change is good or bad […] | Continue reading