102) Nothing is what it used to bethen againmaybe nothing is supposed to bewhat it used to bebecause nothing would bewhat it’s supposed to be now,if it wasand, so,maybe now is just a timeor a moment of awareness, as intoday is just like another sessionin the schoolwhich we call l … | Continue reading
97) I love early morning drives.I love them just beforethe sunrise,and I love howthe sun comes up from the Eastwhich is just behind meand I can see the sunrise mirroredon the reflecting windowson the eastern facades of the buildingson the other sideof the 59th Street Bridge. I lo … | Continue reading
94) I believe in the benefitof what I call,an honest assessmentso that at the end of the dayI can come to a constructive conclusionlike itor not . . . In fairness,I am not sure aboutthe exceptions to the rulenor am I sure aboutthe fool who claims to be king. Then again,in the lan … | Continue reading
91) And we go backto where the bullets hit the skyand back to where the violence comesfrom the sum of out ignorance,multiplied by fearand subtracting usfrom the one thingthat means the most to us.We go back too farand we go back to before the things we bargained forhad worthor ma … | Continue reading
88) Today is about love,also known as Valentine’s Dayhowever, my love is not limitedto one day, nor is my lovelimited at all, not should it be.No, my love is not alignedwith someunrealistic versionof what love is, or isn’t,nor is my love limited to a commercialized viewof what lo … | Continue reading
85) Do you remember the innocenceof looking upwards at the sky?Picture this –just around The Fourth of Julyand looking upto watch the sky bloomwith rockets full of colorand the explosions of sparksand streams, and the aahsthe ooohs,and the mesmerizingmoment when it’s okayto be am … | Continue reading
80) There are no laws that saythis is the way to goor not.Life is not rigidbut bendablechangeable,and malleable, to whichthis means life willshape and mold as we goand rest assured,be prepared for changesand surprisesand in the element of unexpectednessbe aware that life is alway … | Continue reading
76) No one talks about life,or real life, and no one shares their truthsor tells about the hard timesor the unwanted parts of lifelike, when your heart breaksor when life takes placeand you find yourselfin the bottom of a bottomless pitwhich, by the wayit seems as thoughthe botto … | Continue reading
72) Notes to self – So, how did we do? Us, you mean? Yes, usDid we make it out alive? First, I think it is important to rememberthat this is life, and when it comes to life,nobody makes it out alive. So, for now,I’d say that we are doing wellAnd yes, we did okay. We […] | Continue reading
69) I suppose it would be goodto get away for a while,or to be somewhereor someplace that no one daresto speak out of turnor break the silenceto say an unnecessary thing. It would be good to be someplaceor elsewhere, and elsewise,it would be good to gain distancefrom the common c … | Continue reading
62) Dim The lights(Please) Let the candles glowor let the candles do their trickand let them flicker in the soft light,just after the sun goes downor sinks in the horizon,as if the sun is dousedas it slips into the palmof Mother Earth’s hand. Let the moment evolveinto the mixture … | Continue reading
56) There are someor so it seems,or maybe there are more,or even more than I realize; however,there are those among uswho live in the split decisionor who find themselves stuck between fact and fictionand so,they spend their time on the fenceunsure of what to dowhat to say,how to … | Continue reading
51) I got bit by a hint of nostalgia last night,and like a bug bite that got me just before bedtimeI was hit by an itchthat my mind kept scratching,over and over againuntil now. It is not beyond me to wishthat I was young againor to think backabout the days of way backor about ho … | Continue reading
47) You would never knowjust by looking at someoneand you could never really tellwhat they think about,how they really feelwhat they knowor where they have beenor what they have seen. No one ever knowsor sees the invisible scarsor sees the unseeable sickness,like the concealed mo … | Continue reading
43) I have chosen not to step awaynor resignnor quit in this dreamwhich is the same dreamthat I have had with meall this time, and as this pertains to me, specifically;I have come to the decisionthat I cannot and will notstep back, or give way,and surrender another step. I rememb … | Continue reading
39) You never know who you areuntil you find out,and oftentimes,even when we find out,I am amazed when I seehow little we see,or how seldom we noticethat we are far morethan who we think we are. And fear,yes, you . . .fear. You and Ihave gone back and forthfor decades, in factwe … | Continue reading
36) I cannot say that I knew youbut I can saythat I knew you well enough. I can say that I knew enoughto understand thingsthat perhaps,maybe no one elsewould understandor if anything else,I can say that I understandthe things that most peoplewould never dare to admit or talk abou … | Continue reading
31) I find myself lost sometimesor perhaps,I am only hidden in plain sightand simply put, I am aliveand aloudand living in timesof your so-calledconstructive criticism,unless, of course—I disagree. I find myself amongst the massesmissing in actionand so,I am wondering;where have … | Continue reading
29) Hello dear, Rogueat least I can saythat I know you well enough to saythat I know you wellthen, of course,I also know you well enough to saythat I can call you me – A rogue,distantnot dishonest, or discolored,but seasoned and neither innocentnor able to claim ignorance,I under … | Continue reading
25) I can see him nowyoung and unsurebut boldconfusedbut he has yet to be confrontedby the basic rites of passageor crossed by the timesthat come with the typicalconfrontations of life. I see him clearly tooand quite well, in factI see him in special captionsand picturesplaces an … | Continue reading
22) She walks through her imaginationlike a young girlthrough faded fieldsof sunflowers. She counts her years on the backsof ladybugs,which represent more than say,the imaginary rainbowswhere she meets her destiny,live, and in person. I have no answers to make sense ofthe express … | Continue reading
16) There comes a time when you have to say goodbyeas in farewell, and there comes a timewhen you have to find what it takesthat makes you realize.now is the right timeto walk away. I do not envy the choicenor do I envy the positionnor the time or the talk it takesto get from the … | Continue reading
12) It’s been hard, latelyto think clearly without distractionor to act without wonderingabout the “what if” scenariosthat take place when hindsightis in the forefrontand yesterday hangs on to melike a child, pleading for meto change my mind. I go through phases, much like anyone … | Continue reading
8) It is not far now . . .. . . the path to empathyor to find someoneto empathize with, or to understandor to find that somethinglonged for, but missedin the calculationof which way to go –Up, down?Left, or right? It is not far nowsomeone to confide inor who to avoidbut remembert … | Continue reading
I have to get back to where this all began. Therefore, there is no need for a traditional opening, and there is no need for a typical introduction. I have to go back to the beginning.I have to do this for me.I have to remind myself of why I began this trip in the first […] | Continue reading
Nothing lasts without maintenance which means we have to earn what we want in life. But more, we have to learn to keep what we have. Otherwise, we can lose everything we’ve worked for.believe me. I know.Everything needs to be kept and updated and cleaned and used, like an engine … | Continue reading
There is something that is often overlooked. However, in the case of wanting to help people or to be helpful to someone we love, or if we are looking at this as more of a professional journey, sometimes the perfect thing to say is nothing.That’s right. Nothing.The perfect thing t … | Continue reading
There is no need to run away from who we were. And more importantly, there is no reason to hide from who we are now. I have been told that man is who he thinks he is. I have been told that if I think that I am unworthy or that I am unsuccessful, or […] | Continue reading
I was sitting in a comfortable chair across from a soft-spoken man in a room that was softly lit. The room was comfortable and quiet with healthy plants and some pictures on the wall, books in a book case, and a few diplomas were hung and there were some awards to match the inten … | Continue reading
There are two words that we use when we look to define time. There is before. And there is after.I love these words. Before and after.I know them well because there is always a before. There is always the truth and there will always be who I was, who I am, and as for who […] | Continue reading
What was the best day of your life?Do you have one? Or maybe you have more than one.Do you?By the way, it’s okay to have more than one best day. Or we can put this in order from some of the best to the absolute best.We can take this in any direction you would like. […] | Continue reading
If our aim is to improve and transform, then we have to be aware of where to begin. We have to take notes and be aware of ourselves on all sides. We have to understand our weaknesses and our strengths, and to improve, we have to learn to grow, and more importantly, we have to […] | Continue reading
I remember back when I was a kid and I did something wrong or found myself in trouble. Either my parents, or a teacher, or maybe it was one of the assistant principals, or even the principal or a guidance counselor would ask me the same question. Why did you do that? I don’t know … | Continue reading
I can assure you that the past has a way of reappearing. I can say that memories will come, and memories can lie. I can say that there are remnants from the past and there are regrets and there silent battles of mistakes or things we said, which of course, there are words that we … | Continue reading
The point is that we do go backwards. We fall off or we fall back into old routines. Not every hit will be a home run and not every day will be great. But nothing ever has to be so bad again.You know this.Right?They told me that relapse is part of recovery. And maybe it […] | Continue reading
Now that we are moving forward with our plan and replacing thoughts with actions, we have to remember one thing above all, which is that we have to learn to enjoy the process. Otherwise, what’s the point?We have to learn to enjoy ourselves and more than cultivate new sources of i … | Continue reading
No one ever thinks about their energy or how they spend it, at least not really.Everyone knows what energy is. We all know there are things in life that support good, positive energy, and there is also the opposite, which drains us or takes our energy away. There is anabolic ener … | Continue reading
I think this is a good time to go over the meaning behind this journal. As a matter of fact, now is a good time to take a break from the questions and go over the purpose of this so-called action plan. So, you say you want to help people.Is that right?I think this is […] | Continue reading
This is where the vision begins. This is where we begin to plan what we want our life to look like. This is where we start to create a vision for ourselves, so that we can picture our future and, of course, this is where we begin to make it so. Remember something —This is […] | Continue reading
I am going to ask some questions in this entry, so I will keep this short because I want to keep this interactive. Of course, I want you to think about the questions and answer them where they apply. I have seen the benefits of replacement. However, I understand that if we are th … | Continue reading
Although this is intended to be mutually interactive, there is a reason behind each of my entries. Today, I have decided to make this entry about me, just a little.I remember a morning when I was going through a series of heartache and decisions. I remember a time in a basement, … | Continue reading
One of the things I am famous for saying is that we are always the square root to our own equation. This means that everything in our life begins, lives, and ends with us.We are always the square root to our own equation. If we are talking about facing ourselves in the mirror at … | Continue reading
Now is not the time to be afraid, nor is it the place to allow yourself to back down or to turn your head away from the goals in front of you. There is no room left for hysteria and there is no more time to waste. We are here to move forward and not […] | Continue reading
Action creates change.I was told that if I want to be different, then I would have to live differently, which makes sense, of course.I was told to change my actions, so that I could change my thinking, and therefore, by replacing thoughts with actions, I could improve feelings an … | Continue reading
It is important to realize that the first steps are the hardest steps to take. There can be bouts with intimidation. There will be questions about your transformation.Is this possible?Can I do this?Will I fail?Will I quit? More importantly, the real question is do I see any value … | Continue reading
There has to be a beginning. We all start from somewhere, and of course, there are times when we need help or we need to figure out when or where to begin, or howI have been writing to you for years now. Most of this is for me. However, there is hope, which I have […] | Continue reading
I want us to have fun with this journal . . .What does it mean to change or in this case, what is a transformational change?Of course, the answer is simple. We know what change means. And we know what transformation is.However, change is such a common word. So, I would like to of … | Continue reading
I am a fan of change or more to the point, I am more a fan of transformational changes, of say, the way we are, or the way we think, and of course, I am huge fan when it comes to the results or ow they change the way we act. I believe these changes […] | Continue reading