I threw off my schedule this morning.I lost my head for a second and to me, it seemed as though I lost my way –Well . . . at least for a little while.I didn’t have my computer handy which is like asking a left-hander to go right.I say this because my routine is everything […] | Continue reading
It will be take-off time soon. And I mean this is so many ways.We could be on a flight to anywhere, anywhere at all, and just before the plane lifts, we can feel that rush of inertia. We can feel the speed picking up before the plane hits the sky.We can feel the pressure of […] | Continue reading
I wonder about something all the time.What makes us so different?Is there such a thing as the magic or lucky gene pool?Is this something that alters the pattern of our lives and shapes our existence because of who brought us into the world? Or maybe the so-called lucky gene pool … | Continue reading
Don’t limit your challenges. Challenge your limits.I love this idea.And who knows how many times I’ve heard this quote or other sayings that are like this?But sometimes the mind comes alive and at last, we hear what we’ve been deaf to or see what we were blind to.I used to wonder … | Continue reading
Before I step forward, I need to express my gratitude. I also need to express that this project, or this journal of mine, has been inspired by the drive and the need to live. This is all about three very big and special words: Go, Be and Do.Also, this is written with regard and r … | Continue reading
I would like to be very clear about this.And I’m not sure that I am alone with this thought. But anyway, here it goes. I have never been the person who wakes up early to goes to the gym. I wake up early for other reasons. I’m up before the crack of dawn for work […] | Continue reading
What’s the sense of having a purpose if we don’t make it purposeful?You know?I have told you about that game, Never Have I Ever . . .I’ve told you about this list I’ve been working on and how the list of “Nevers” is longer than I want it to be. I want to shorten the […] | Continue reading
There is a question that is very simple.What do you want to do with your life?I remember this question from back when I was a kid. And the reason I remember this question is because there was a music video by a band called Twisted Sister.(remember them?)The song was called the so … | Continue reading
And ah, there’s music.And then, there’s the dance we do. So, if you wouldn’t mind –Dance with me please. But before you do, just know what this means before you say yes. There’s a way to slow dance and hold someone close. At least, I think there is.I do this as if the light shuts … | Continue reading
I will say that this entry comes with a basic, forewarning that while not everything in my life has been a scene of beauty, I can say that there is beauty. Even in my ugliness.I mentioned the show RENT to you –This was a play that became a movie which is significant to me because … | Continue reading
I will kindly ask you to forgive the sappiness of this entry. But yes, what I am about to offer is true and fit for this journal. While my aim is to be truthful, I understand that the purity of beauty and the honesty of wholesomeness (for some reason) can sting, like an old antis … | Continue reading
As I move through this new phase in my life and as I enter this new chapter of an unexplored version of me, I can see myself now, and perhaps I can see myself more clearly now more than ever. I understand where I am and, from an introspective view; I know that I want […] | Continue reading
I find myself on the verge of another morning. Yet I go back to old thoughts of mine and memories or moments of nostalgia. I suppose what I need to do most is understand my terms so that in order for me to accomplish my dreams, I have to understand the meaning behind my definitio … | Continue reading
I saw someone use a quote on their social media page this morning. The quote is from Confucius which says, “Wherever you go, go with all your heart.” I think about this with regards to my life. I think about this with regards to my happiness or to the levels of which I have worke … | Continue reading
I remember the time I read about a day lived by Robert Fulghum. He said there was one day in his life that he wished he could relive, exactly as it was without any changes.I read Fulghum’s words in his book, “All I Need to Know I Already Learned in Kindergarten.” because the book … | Continue reading
Everyone has a list or two. And the list can be simple or some can be more complicated.Some can be like this list I have which I plan to attack throughout the length of this journal. Or, even beyond this, I have goals I want to achieve and places I want to see.I have a […] | Continue reading
It would only seem fair that since this is the start of a new journey for me, then it would only make sense to start this with a new journal as well. The journal before this was personal. I admit this is true.Then again, anything written from the heart or anything which is true t … | Continue reading
I’m calling this last entry “Hope.”I say this is the perfect way to end this journal because although life does not come with any guarantees, and in spite of the twists and turns, above all else; I still have hope.It is morning now and soon, I am going to embark on an official jo … | Continue reading
I am thinking about the old telephone operators that used to manually connect telephone lines so that people could talk to each other.I’m thinking about the wires that made the connection, which obviously needed to happen. Otherwise, there’s be no communication.I think about what … | Continue reading
Sit with me. Just for a second.The sun will be up soon and I don’t want to miss this. I don’t want to miss the first light. I don’t want to miss another morning. At least, not right now. It’s beautiful out. The wind is cool but nice on the skin. It’s not cold by […] | Continue reading
It is amazing to me that I am here now. Then again, where else would I be? Or, where else could I be?I am a firm believer that whatever could have happened, did happen. I believe that we look around and hem and haw or waste time, thinking about the ideas of what could’ve been. [… … | Continue reading
Its time to understand and redefine this. But more, it’s time to come to an understanding that as I evolve, I have to allow myself the permission to evolve as well. But first, I have to allow myself the honest realization that yes . . . Life is crazy. It is crazy though. Isn’t it … | Continue reading
There has to be something. A light, maybe. There has to be something to cling to or at least some kind of fabric to our lives that holds us together.And you hear people say things all the time. They say things like, “You have to let go,” or they’ll tell you that “God doesn’t put … | Continue reading
I am reminded of a movie. I am reminded of the words by Saul Williams when he spoke out in a poem in the center of the yard in a jail scene.He said, “Stealing us was the smartest thing they ever did. Too bad they don’t teach the truth to their kids.”It was here that […] | Continue reading
It is early morning and the sky is about to rain. And that’s fine.I tend to think that the sky can often be Intune with our thoughts and our feelings. For example, sometimes we need a little rain. Sometimes we need something to settle the dust from our crazy little arguments and … | Continue reading
Today’s entry will be short but only because time is being short with me. So, without any distractions, let’s get right down to the point.Shall we? And it’s not just here and now. It’s not just with you or with the way things are. This is me. Evolving and hopefully working out th … | Continue reading
There is a game called Never Have I Ever.It’s a drinking game, which I have never played before. But at the same time, I haven’t played a drinking game since the time I drank a bottle of whiskey in my old friend Pete’s house. Or at the same time, I haven’t had a drink in […] | Continue reading
And so it was. Or, at least so it used to be.Or, maybe it is and always will be but either way, today marks another year and another trip around the sun.Or to be more clear, today marks the 51st year of my life. And so?What have I done?Any questions? I do not say this […] | Continue reading
Do I have needs?Sure, I have needs. I have them every day. I have thoughts and visions. I have wants and desires and, of course, I have requests and ideas. At the same time, I have the ability to understand that my needs and desires are special. Therefore, they can only be shared … | Continue reading
I was asked about my writing the other day. . .I was asked, “What do you write about?” Is this self-help? I was asked if this is about mental health or if this is simple prose and to me, I can say that maybe my writing is all of the above. Or, maybe it’s none […] | Continue reading
What is a word without anything behind it? What is a letter? What is a number, as in a number of years or an anniversary without the depth of something behind it?I am learning now. Perhaps this is because I have no choice. Or, maybe I’m learning because in the case of my new life … | Continue reading
I believe in what I am doing. However, I also believe that when it comes to matters like this and when we are dealing with matters of the heart or when it comes to true love and our search for the ever-elusive happily ever after; I know there is no easy way or easy path. […] | Continue reading
There’s a song that comes to mind. And this is a good song. It’s a happy song and a song that comes from when I was younger and trying to be free. This was a song I would hear when I was somewhat “away” and yet, there was a piece of me that was looking […] | Continue reading
I know there’s something here. I know that there’s something that I need to see or need to take notice of. It is early, as usual. I am awake and sipping my first few sips of my morning coffee. I am separating myself as a means of positive detachment, which is not to say that […] | Continue reading
The problem is confidence. Yes, that’s it . . .Then again, if the problem is our confidence then the solution is also confidence. So to be fair, the problem lies in-between. If this is so, then the question becomes how do we build this? How do we resecure our footing so that we c … | Continue reading
And so it goes . . .Right?And so this is what happens with any change or with any moment of realization. This is what comes upon us when we open our eyes, or with any so-called bottom that we hit, we have to come to an understanding, or an acceptance of “What is,” which is […] | Continue reading
I can’t say it was always like this. I can’t say that I always saw clearly or even if I see things clearly now, I can’t say that I see anything clearly enough to call it all obvious. I can’t say that I understand the process of how life works or why life happens the way […] | Continue reading
I can’t believe that time flies like it does. At the same time, maybe it’s good that time moves fast. Maybe this will bring us closer to something bigger, or more promising, like say – a smile over something simple. The question is what now?I can say that while I am here to face … | Continue reading
And so it was or so it is. Or perhaps, so this will be another time and another spin around the sun. Maybe this is more than a cosmic concept from the mind and more than the strings of destiny yet, although I know there’s a purpose for me, I swear there are times when […] | Continue reading
There is a scene towards the end of the movie Good Will Hunting that has always had meaning to me. And of course, at a moment when I was trying to “relax” or not to “think,” I found myself clicking through the movies on cable. What did I click on? You guessed it. The very […] | Continue reading
I suppose I don’t know what tomorrow brings. Then again, no one knows what tomorrow brings. I’m sure that we all have hopes. We all have idea and wishes and dreams.Yes, but so long as tomorrow comes then tomorrow then at least tomorrow comes, and with this can bring hope or if no … | Continue reading
They say that we give off an energy or maybe this is our chemistry, And maybe this is why we gather and gravitate towards certain people in our lives. Maybe some of our connections are more of a habit and less than helpful and more of a deterrent than an inspiration to launch our … | Continue reading
I have been telling you about this so-called rebuild that I’ve been working on, which are these notes of mine, and more importantly, this is what this journal is all about. This is about personal improvement. But more, this is about understanding the different levels of my abilit … | Continue reading
I just read somewhere that the right person will make you fall in love with yourself too. I agree with this . . .I can see how this makes sense. I can see how love is the true enemy of doubt. I can also see why true love can take away pain, dissolve the past, erase […] | Continue reading
I have some unfinished business to take care of. And by now, I’m sure this is no surprise. I have a life to live. I have hurdles to leap and obstacles to overcome. Or better yet, I have obstacles that need to be turned into opportunities. And I get it. I’m not the safe one. […] | Continue reading
They say never go food shopping when you’re hungry. I can understand this. And no. I’m not hungry right now. At least, not for food. But the comparison that I am about to make to the quote is something that reveals my hunger of a different sort. Never tell your secrets. . .Otherw … | Continue reading
I was listening to some music last night. And as a result, I came across an old song from the Pink Floyd. I started out with the more well-known or popular songs. But then I recalled a song called Set the Controls For the Heart of the Sun. And there’s another one too. Point Me [… … | Continue reading
Aside from the common things we see around us, and aside from the not so common features of our everyday life, and aside from the twists and turns and life’s ability to change without any warning, or aside from the way fate can change the direction of our paths, I have decided th … | Continue reading