In the case of I against I or Me against Me, and in the case of my life and my world or the skin I want and the skin I’m in, I have found some truths to be, as they say, self-evident. I see this now as obvious as ever, and in the case of […] | Continue reading
There is no reason to find fault or to assign blame to anyone or any particular thing. At least, not anymore.This is us, which means that acceptance has to start here. We have to own out spot and our position.This is where we are and yes, like we have been talking about in the la … | Continue reading
I suppose I have to credit this entry to a song by a man named Dobie Gray.And in a minute, the world could strike a chord and the music could change speed. So be ready to dance. That’s what I say.I think that there are a few details, which should be included in our life. […] | Continue reading
Just for the record –We do have an impact on the world around us.Life changes and so do we.I have been saying this for a long time now.I am not the person I used to be. Then again, none of us are, at least not really.I am not the same person I used to be […] | Continue reading
I believe that in life, even our dreams may die. Unless we feed them. Unless we care for them Yes, our dreams are very much alive.I believe in work. And further, I believe it was in the Book of James when it was said, faith without works is dead.What is faith without the works be … | Continue reading
Snow is falling in New York City. The world looks different to me this way. Soft and slow. Peaceful. And I like it like this. Soft and slow. Peaceful too. And that’s exactly what this is about.Peace. It is not too far from us to think that peace or happy days are on their way. [… … | Continue reading
I think it is important to be honest. In fact, I say this with all sincerity that we need to come to a constructive conclusion at the end of each day, which means we have to acknowledge our faults and flaws as well as our victories and successes.As I see it –We are closer now […] | Continue reading
My last entry mentioned the difference between the skin I want and the skin I’m in, which is not to say that there is a discrepancy between the two. No.I can say that like most people, I am an eventual and inevitable, I am a work in progress, much like the rest of us are.I […] | Continue reading
It would seem there are times when people are split in two halves.This is a mix or should I say this is life when split in two parts. Say for example, the skin I want. The skin I’m in. Or otherwise, the life I want. The life I live.The life I have. The life I […] | Continue reading
Life has its moments. This is for sure.We all know what stress feels like, We all know what it’s like to have anxiety or to have that moment when something happens, quick, hurry! And we almost crash or fall or there’s almost an accident and our body is at a heightened state of al … | Continue reading
Safe to say that yes. I am a lucky man. And safe to say that I am a blessed man. I’m fortunate to be where I am today and at the same time, I think it is safe to say that luck is often a self-made thing.Of course, there are people who were born into a […] | Continue reading
Once more, I begin this with a question.And this is not a new question. Or at least, I should say this question is not new question to me. At the same time, I ask this nonetheless.Is it possible to find peace in a state of unrest?Is it possible to find clarity in moments of perso … | Continue reading
Do you have fear?I do.I know all about fear.And this is as honest as it gets. I am afraid to be revealed or exposed.I have fears of being humiliated. I have a huge fear of being alone, unloved, or unwanted.These are real fears to me. All this means that this means is that yes, I … | Continue reading
I have come back to the reason why I started writing in the first place. This was to find peace. I wanted to know if peace was real and too, I wanted to know If happiness was real. Is life real? Is love?Is it? In fairness, I know that all of this is real. I […] | Continue reading
It is important to say this. We have to find a way to make it through . . .I offer this because not everyone is having the time of their life right now.I say this too, because there will be bouts and times and moments with no peace. No justice or warmth for the hands. […] | Continue reading
I know there is always a sense of peace. I know there is. I know this because I have found this, even in the worst of places.Even when times are wild or when chaos is everywhere, I know that there’s always something out there. There’s always someplace to look or somewhere to find … | Continue reading
What are the things that bring you peace?Is it the sunset? Is it the sunrise?Is it an old movie that comes on television and brings you back to a memory of when you were younger? Or is it something else that brings you back to a time when life was less complicated? I can say […] | Continue reading
Of course there are things that we wish would never change. There are times and moments that we wish we could relive or rewind, just so we could see them again, exactly as they were. Perfect, just like the first time.The lights would be equally bright. The moment could be magnifi … | Continue reading
There is a time which I recall, long ago, and from a lifetime that seems to be so far away. I was young and on the verge of a thousand different things. My life was changing. My Mother had moved. My Father was gone. My family had spread itself thin and my friendships were changin … | Continue reading
Before anything goes onward from here, the answer is yes. I have to keep moving with this. I have to keep my commitment to an idea I had, a long time ago, and yes. I have to keep writing.You have been with me for a very long time now. Then again, in my eyes, you […] | Continue reading
Today marks the start of a new year. However, whether this is the start of something new or more of the same; my life is on a special course, which means that I have work to do. I have a job, which I call my day job. This is the job that pays my bills […] | Continue reading
It is the last day of this year on Earth and for whatever the reasons may be, the planets have decided to allow me another year around the sun. I see no reason to look back, nor do I find any answers that are valuable enough for me to rethink where I am now because, […] | Continue reading
I don’t know if there really is a real world. I only know what’s real to me, which is subjective of course and yes, this is only subject to me and my interpretation and perception.I know this –I think about this thing we call our “real life” and at the same time, I wonder what [ … | Continue reading
This is a day that I will always remember. Yet, the day is fine for now.It has been years since The Old Man passed. So much has happened. I have grown some. I’ve moved around quite a bit. I’ve learned and I’ve changed. I’ve circled back and then stepped forward, only to find the … | Continue reading
I think it was years or maybe it was for as long as I was alive. And you tried to tell me. You tried so hard but of course, I hardly listened.Then again, isn’t this the trouble with kids?They never listen . . . Mom – You were never sure why I was so hard […] | Continue reading
I can see him standing there in the sunlight. He is my creator.He is the one who helped bring me into this world. He is my first hero. He is my introduction to manhood and mentor, leader, teacher and Father.I can see him standing in the sunlight and looking out from the shoreline … | Continue reading
I said goodbye to organized religions a few years back. Then again, I never said goodbye to my beliefs nor have I forgotten the traditions I was raised with. I have not forgotten the customs of my background or my heritage either. In fact, I go through different holidays in my ow … | Continue reading
It is warm for this time of year. December, I mean. Perhaps this side of purgatory is expecting a mild winter. But who knows? The idols we cherish have all but sworn off their poisons and to this day, I still can’t understand the how’s or the why’s of life as it stands before me. … | Continue reading
Today is Christmas Eve, Sunday, December 24, 2023.I say this and I also understand this might be obvious to you or to someone else out there in the universe who might choose to read this entry. At the same time, I want to recognize the date. I want to recognize the time and the w … | Continue reading
Do you want to talk about happiness?Do you want to talk about finding happiness? Or is it better to say to find that thing, or that source, or that touch or feel? Is it better to say that there is a physical sense to happiness? And I mean one with a more intimate appeal –I […] | Continue reading
There are so many variables that we deal with in life. There are the daily things that happen. There’s work. There’s the people we interact with. Then there are the unexpected casualties and the unforeseen tragedies. There’s love or the lack thereof. There’s friends and then ther … | Continue reading
It is the time of year where all around us are dressed in holiday lights. It’s Christmas time. And while this is a time for hope and a time for giving, there are people who do not share the same sentiment of find the same enjoyment for this time of year.And I get it. . […] | Continue reading
It’s true. The world is a crazy place. Everyone is crazy. Then again, maybe this is a good thing, to be crazy, I mean.Maybe crazy is only a relative term. That could be true.I say crazy but when I do, I do not mean crazy in a derogatory sense or to demean or degrade us as certifi … | Continue reading
This one here . . .This one is from the heart.So, by now, we have talked about finding the little things, which make us happy.We’ve talked about the greatest finds in our life, such as unexpected money in our pockets and other things like that. We talked about the unexpected plea … | Continue reading
Ah, the Mother. There she is. The Great Almighty, Mother Earth, The Universe, The Powers that Be. Or, to whomever this may concern.These are the hands of fate which sew the world, like eyelets to a shoe and bring us together. All of this is done through a vehicle, which we call f … | Continue reading
And when it rains, it pours. Or so I hear. They say that the downpour should start soon, at least this is what the weatherman says. We are supposed to expect high winds and heavy rains, which is fine for today.No really, this is fine with me. My apartment is dim with the exceptio … | Continue reading
I was thinking about those little things again. Believe it or not; this is where happiness lives – in the little things.These are the things that let you know when people are paying attention. You know because it’s the details people notice when they care for you. And that’s me r … | Continue reading
The question I have perhaps isn’t so much as to ask how do we find happiness? Nor does the question become where do we look? However, and more valuable is the question that asks, how do we keep our pleasure center intact? How do we find rewards in unrewarding times?I think this i … | Continue reading
There is one thing that I know in my heart, which is very simple. It is equally crazy and yet, this is all part of life.The one thing I know is that at one point or another, we have to go crazy. I mean it. We have to go absolutely nuts. We have to lose […] | Continue reading
I think about this –There are more than 7 billion people in this world. I think about the craziest concept which is the fact that for whatever the reasons may be or in whichever way our paths have gone, somehow, here we are, connected by the directions of fate or destiny.I think … | Continue reading
Forget the world for a moment. Forget the bills we have to pay. Forget the taxes and the insurance, the rent, or the mortgage that’s due at the beginning of ever month. Forget the pile of things that weigh on your shoulders. Forget about the bouts and the fights and the arguments … | Continue reading
I think that since this journal is designed to discover happiness, then it is only important to go back to the very basic steps to either define or discover what the word happiness means.To be happy or to be content, or satisfied. Or more, to have a presence of something that eit … | Continue reading
Music . . .Safe to say that I have my own soundtrack that fits my life. Safe to say that yes, there are songs and various types of music which depicts or defines my best version of happiness. And sure, not all tastes are the same. Not all music is the same and yes, I […] | Continue reading
There is something I missed in my life. Or, maybe this is something that I skipped or never touched or felt. And there is a phase that people live through or a period of time that everyone goes through; yet, this is a period of my life that seems blank, like a page that went […] | Continue reading
And I find myself climbing and looking to reach the top. I am moving and striving to find that place where I can say, yes. I made it!I am working to find that spot or that pinnacle, that insurmountable or unsurpassable or grand plateau where all is green or summery, or perfect an … | Continue reading
I suppose it makes sense to talk about this now. I suppose if we are looking to find happiness or if we are looking to improve our smiles and find the simple things that boost our spirits, it pays to be aware of the items that steal our smiles or swipe our happiness.There are the … | Continue reading
I want to let go . . .I want to shed that excess skin. Better yet, I want to get down to that thing we call our true self. Know what I mean?I want to rid myself of the layers that have formed over the years and as I remove each mask and let go […] | Continue reading
I remember a scene in a movie where a homeless man told strangers, “Welcome to Hollywood. What’s your dream?”I say that’s a fair question. What’s your dream?What does it look like? Who’s in it?And of course, what do you want to do with this?Do you want to see this come true?Or, d … | Continue reading