Last year on October 8th I celebrated six months of sobriety by myself on the floor next to my bed feeling as if I were a wounded animal who wanted to be left alone to die. There was no one in my life who could possibly comprehend how symbolic a victory it was for me, ... | Continue reading
She wants her planet back. Woolfy – “Shooting Stars” Funny how his voice in this song made me think he was singing ratchet instead of rapture. I heard this song on Monday morning for the first time and have returned to it over and over again because of that word. I left my home t … | Continue reading
FROM THE ARCHIVES | ORIGINALLY PUBLISHED ON 06.06.2004 ….. It’s been a troubling weekend for the American People. Creed split up, Ronald Reagan died, Smarty Jones didn’t win the Triple Crown, and Jennifer Lopez got married, again. How will we ever pick up the pieces and move on t … | Continue reading
Mimi Parker of the band Low died on Saturday night following a battle with ovarian cancer. I recently wrote about seeing this duo in 1997 in a small house in Salt Lake City. I was in the midst of leaving the Mormon church at the time, startled by a man I was dating into the ... | Continue reading
The following song is the fifth track on OK Computer, an album released by Radiohead 25 years ago. It has always been my favorite song, and I consider it to be Radiohead’s crowning achievement as a band. Radiohead – “Let Down” My best friend at the time thought that one of the mo … | Continue reading
Every Halloween I experience a muscle memory wherein I reach for my camera while gathering a costume for The Original Meme Dog, he who made me a mother a few years before Leta did. That may sound like a weird sentiment, but Former Congressman Henry Buck Chucklesworth rolled throu … | Continue reading
The first true sign of trouble in my parents’ marriage aside from several months of late night quarreling happened in the driveway to our home that was tucked into the curve at the end of Cedar Oak Cove in Bartlett, Tennessee, a small suburb just northeast of Memphis. It was June … | Continue reading
While we are on the topic of Radiohead, I wanted to mention that they released their seventh studio album In Rainbows in October of 2007. It was a surprise masterpiece with it being so late in the game for a band, an album layered with so many twists and turns and textures that i … | Continue reading
In 1997 while I was working for Grid Magazine, a publication art directed by my ex-husband, I was leisurely handed what would now be considered the biggest writing assignment a music critic could hope for in their lifetime. The magazine’s editor Sam Cannon was Jon’s best friend a … | Continue reading
Two nights ago I asked Marlo if they wanted to watch a movie after dinner, and without missing a beat they said, “There was that one movie you and Leta were watching a few months ago, the one that made Leta look like she was being beaten up.” I don’t think I need to reiterate ... | Continue reading
Yesterday I spent the morning at the dermatologist to have three suspicious spots on my body examined by a skin doctor and his attending student physician. This is something I have put off for far too long, and I was hoping they’d look at two of the smaller affected areas and shr … | Continue reading
Two months ago I began working out at the gym four times a week — mostly weights and resistance training — to try and sync my body to a regular tempo of stamina and sleep. I suppose this is yet another post about alcoholism considering the following: One, I stopped going to the g … | Continue reading
Last year on October 8th I celebrated six months of sobriety by myself on the floor next to my bed feeling as if I were a wounded animal who wanted to be left alone to die. There was no one in my life who could possibly comprehend how symbolic a victory it was for me, ... | Continue reading
FROM THE ARCHIVES | ORIGINALLY PUBLISHED ON 11.29.2017 ….. While looking for things to feature in a Black Friday/Cyber Monday round up of deals I stumbled across this t-shirt and immediately thought, “If I ever get a tattoo it’s going to be these exact words in giant block letter … | Continue reading
This morning I put on fingerless gloves to drive Marlo to school because the weather in Utah has hit that point when breath meets air in a plume of mist. These gloves allow me to mimic the baseline of any song on the bottom of the steering wheel — again this behavior is in no ... | Continue reading
Tomorrow marks the 13th anniversary of the death of my maternal grandmother Geneva Katherine Smith, the matriarch of a family of 10 children. My mother Linda was the third child from her first marriage to a man named Leland Madison, and my mother’s younger sister Leta was the fif … | Continue reading
FROM THE ARCHIVES | ORIGINALLY PUBLISHED ON MARCH 8, 2022 ….. Three days ago I flew into St. Louis, Missouri, and after getting settled into my rental car began playing a game of Let’s See How Many Things I Can Inventory in the Next 90 Minutes and How Detailed I Can Be About the … | Continue reading
Alright. My sleep has been hit or miss over the past couple of weeks, and I’m trying not to think about it too much. I have written about this phobia before, and yes. It is a phobia. It is a fear of being unable to fall asleep and a fear of being unable to remain ... | Continue reading
I have been searching for something to watch in the evenings, something to pass the time. Nights have recently been an agonizing time for me, and I have been searching for relief. An ice cold glass of water feeling of ease. Like a damp rag I can wrap around my neck and occasional … | Continue reading
This post is about sobriety. You probably thought that everything on my site was going to be about sobriety once I came clean about being an alcoholic. And, oh. I see you over there. You think I A.A.’ed up, didn’t you? I wonder why that seems to be a problem for some of you. I’ll … | Continue reading
This post is about sobriety. You probably thought that everything on my site was going to be about sobriety once I came clean about being an alcoholic. And, oh. I see you over there. You think I A.A.’ed up, didn’t you? I wonder why that seems to be a problem for some of you. I’ll … | Continue reading
I experienced an ongoing and debilitating bump in the road this week as I have been circling back into the rhythm of life during this time of the year. For those of you who suffer from depression and anxiety like I do, you will have heard me speak of the fall equinox blues when t … | Continue reading
For those of you following along on Instagram — and yes, I know you are, I see you — you will have seen that I waltzed from Denmark to Prague and then spent some time in Portugal over the summer. I didn’t chronicle the time I spent on a stopover in Amsterdam, a city I ... | Continue reading
This morning I was getting into the car while Marlo was nestling their backpack onto the floorboard beneath their feet. As soon as I turned on the stereo, this song came on and it happened to be easing into the following lyric: “Well I remember, I remember don’t worry…” Now, ever … | Continue reading
FROM THE ARCHIVES | ORIGINALLY PUBLISHED ON JULY 18, 2017 When people found out that I was going to be spending three weeks in Paris, the reactions broke into two distinct camps. Some would say, “Oh my god, what are you thinking? I’d get bored after four days! You are surely goin … | Continue reading
FROM THE ARCHIVES | ORIGINALLY PUBLISHED ON JUNE 25, 2018 I just had my DNA analyzed by a private company that will inevitably sell it to multiple governments, and in how many ways are we all fucked? The results indicate that I’m not descended from a single bean that sprouted in … | Continue reading
FROM THE ARCHIVES | ORIGINALLY PUBLISHED ON APRIL 5, 2010 I arrived last Monday evening into DC at about midnight, and when I opened the door to my room at the W Hotel I should have headed straight to bed. Instead, I spent an hour in the tub — it was a giant marble-topped Eighth … | Continue reading
FROM THE ARCHIVES | ORIGINALLY PUBLISHED ON MAY 17, 2017 I’ve mentioned that when we moved we downsized by 75%, and about a month ago while walking through Costco I stopped dead in the paper towel aisle—BY THE WAY, my Costco, the Costco I attend, it is the biggest Costco in the w … | Continue reading
"Mars ain't the kind of place to raise your kids, in fact it's cold as hell." | Continue reading
FROM THE ARCHIVES | ORIGINALLY PUBLISHED ON AUGUST 17, 2009 Ok. So. We decided that the name Marlo was a frontrunner back in December — an homage to Marlo Thomas, a woman whose father started a children’s hospital in my hometown of Memphis, Tennessee. And then in February we down … | Continue reading
This issue here — the transgender identity issue — this will sink the progressive party. I don’t like saying I told you so, but when Democrats lose the next election — and they will — you will remember that I said it here first. Conservatives are watching us destroy our own party … | Continue reading
I am Heather B. Hamilton and this is my website. I now have to take the ball and go home, and you can probably guess why. My parting gift to you comes comes in two parts. LE PREMIÈRE: Your children are asking you through their behavior, “Why are you agreeing with me when I am ... | Continue reading
I know many of you may think that I took the ball and went home in the game of depression. And I did, too. I’m old and I’m almost 50. But I can still kick, motherfuckers. I thought I had taken the ball and gone away forever. Because this is all just a game, right? ... | Continue reading
Last Friday morning I was sitting on a ferry as it headed south in San Francisco Bay. Pete and his two kids occupied seats in front of me, and I followed the line of the hood of his gray sweatshirt hanging in a flop at the back of his neck to the angle of Marlo’s ... | Continue reading
On Friday afternoon I returned an indigo blue Dodge Ram 1500 Classic to the Alamo Rent A Car just south of St. Louis Lambert International Airport. I wrote about this Hydration Tank last week — you can find it here — and the fact that I have no link to an archive of my writing .. … | Continue reading