After the ideas and contemplation and after all the back and forth thinking which, if anything; none of this has done much except lead us to excuses and distance from our goals or to another problem, which is known as procrastination. Once we get through all the realizations and … | Continue reading
When we look at people who succeed and compare ourselves to them or to their success, what do we see?When we think about people who dedicate themselves to a program or see how they invest in strong routine in life, what do we notice about them?Or better yet, when we look at peopl … | Continue reading
There literally is no distance between here and where we want to be in life. This is more of a decision and means towards an end. There is only time and space and the perceptions of difficulty. There’s nothing else to this.Or more accurately, this is a moment when a person says, … | Continue reading
Safe to say that by now, we all know what drives us crazy. We al know what sets us off, which can range from someone leaving a mess on the table or not cleaning up after themselves. This can be seeing someone litter or being interrupted when speaking. Either way, my point is that … | Continue reading
Something I heard in the beginning of my journey is to keep the focus on myself, which is great advice. Yet, somehow, we can often be distracted.I was told, “worry about you.” I was told to stop comparing and stop thinking about what other people say or what other people do.“Keep … | Continue reading
The question above is why start here?Since, I am open to suggestions, I respond to this question with a question of my own.Where else should we start?Where else do we begin, but in the beginning?Right? So –Here at phase one, our attempts to understand ourselves and our freakouts … | Continue reading
I think today is perfect for this entry. I think that this is not only timely but necessary for me. Also, the topic of forgiveness is an interesting one, to say the least.I say this because of all that we carry on our shoulders. I say this because of the burdens in our heart and … | Continue reading
In all honesty, math was never my strong point. I can do the simple things. I know the basics pretty well but for the most part, I am grateful for calculators and things that do the math for me. But, regardless of the items which can either add, subtract, multiply or divide; this … | Continue reading
Safe to say that our mind has a way of reeling back to a time when we heard something, only, it seems we never listened until later in life.It seems that we might have heard something, but we never listened until we replayed the lesson back in our mind. Or, maybe like in our last … | Continue reading
Whether we are at the starting point or at a turning point in our lives is yet to be determined. Either way, my reasons for this journal are unique to me. This means your reasons for following along are unique to you.My reasons for this journal are to highlight my goals. In fact, … | Continue reading
So, I hear you want to be happy, is that right?Well, then let’s see what has to happen. There has to come a time when something wakes us up. Maybe this can come from something we’ve seen or known about for a long time and then almost out of nowhere, we shake our heads as […] | Continue reading
What has to happen?In the sense of our life, what has to happen to make or create actions?This is a great question. When talking about our sanity and when talking about our best life, what has to happen for us to make this so?Or, when talking about happiness. What has to happen t … | Continue reading
It is true that our past has led us up to where we are now. And, it is also true that our past has been defined as what we knew. Our history has certainly played a role, which has shaped the way we think and the way we see things. This can certainly set up […] | Continue reading
When we talk about the rebirth of sanity, we have to establish what this means to us.What is sanity and therefore, what is the absence of sanity?What does it mean to have a strong understanding or beneficial presence of mind? What would it look like to have a strong and beneficia … | Continue reading
Years back, I was a specialist in a peer-based recovery initiative. The plan was to offer a peer-to-peer perspective with hopes to an improved level of interpersonal understanding. In fairness, the initiative was somewhat successful. I found myself at the ground level of where I … | Continue reading
The question still remains, why do people have such a strong need to be right?What does this mean to us? And, if people have the need to be right, then what does this mean we want the least?To be wrong?The questions on this are interesting because these questions help define our … | Continue reading
The best place to start is always at the beginning. Also, the best place to start is here, as humans. Regular, normal, everyday people, just like us, running around the Earth in search of whatever this journey has in sore for us. Then again, the best place to start for anyone is … | Continue reading
Introduction: There were a few months in the summer of 06 in which I had to redefine myself. I had to come to grips with certain choices that I made, which as a result of a trade, I found myself in uncharted territory. First, I had to strip myself down from all that I had, […] | Continue reading
I’m leaving this here because I think now is a good time to get ready and move on to the next one.As for now, today is Memorial Day, May 29, 2023 I found myself on a post-sunrise drive, heading inbound and over the George Washington Bridge, once more, and making my way over the H … | Continue reading
I come back here, to this spot,which is what I consider to bethe re-birthplace of self, to where it begins and ends and to where the cycles of life unfold and then fold over once more. I came back here to this place, where I begin my ending, and more to the point; this is […] | Continue reading
I suppose this was brought on by a dose of nostalgia. This thought. This idea. I sip from my coffee, breathe in and out and then I sigh with an exhale before I begin. The screen in front of my face is white and empty but yet; this is the one place I knowwhere I […] | Continue reading
To each their own and there we go, each of us, going off in our own directionand heading out, on our way, separate from the crowd and unlike the others because unlike the masses, people like us want more than just another trip around the sun. I know I do . . . I want […] | Continue reading
I walked alone during the early morning sunrise, knowing full and well that walks like this would be coming to an end. We were approaching summer, the year was 2015 I knew that while my reason for this trip was to settle the affairs of my dying Mother, that times were moving and … | Continue reading
I’m not sure when this was.A long time ago, I suppose.This must’ve beenbut when, I don’t remember. It must have been a realization, which came in waves, like the rides, rolling in and changing the face of the sandseroding the coast of lifeand redefining the way I saw things Long … | Continue reading
There’s a word I hear all the time.It’s a thing too, a way to be, and maybe even a lesson for others or an artform of living.The word is called selflessAs in, no concern for selfIt’s not about “Me.”There’s no “I”SelflessAs in no need for repayment As in without regard for self pr … | Continue reading
So, I have been me for a very long time. In fact, I have been me, all of my life, since the day I was born. Surprising, right?I know . . .It’s a shocker. However, I have also lived my life a certain way for a very long time; and with no regrets on this […] | Continue reading
I’m not ready to let this journal end,. At least, not yet. But more importantly and more for you to understand, this is my reach from a place here in fact, I have either been held captive or been set free. In part, my efforts are to explain ideas and thoughts, and, with hopes to … | Continue reading
(Written respectfully for the McGinley family) Thank you for teaching me – I come from this. I am this and because I am, I want to be this especially to the best of my ability because behold the worker, the doer, the prime mover of the world the one who aches and hurts and yet, [ … | Continue reading
I would like to begin this with my hat in hand,humble as I can be and with all I have, I want to thank the artists who’ve taught meinspired me, opened my eyes to allow me the understanding that it’s alright for me to be who I amand that in my formI do not have […] | Continue reading
Be advised, your words have more power than you think.Be aware that you have more might than you believe you possess, and in your stance to fight back, the remedies to your weakness are as follows:if your will and intent can outweigh our fears and intimidationsyou can withstand a … | Continue reading
It was not the first time I had ever walked through electric doors and motorized gates that shut with a loud slam, that sounded like a loud exclamation point, which exclaimed about the absence of freedom. Also, it was not the first time that I was escorted or led through a hallwa … | Continue reading
Let the drums beat.Let the rage come out. Let the music take over and let the foot hit the pedalso you can drive offas fast as you can and just go. Let the sun come up. Let the road be empty and the mind go clear.Let it goWhatever “it” isOr, whatever this means to you […] | Continue reading
What does it mean to be a pioneer?What does it mean to be the first of your kind, to lead without being led, or to step away from the predictions that tell you, “You can’t do it,” and yet, when you go ahead and do it anyway –See? So then,what does it take to defy […] | Continue reading
It is quiet now. Then again, of course it is – quiet, I meanThe sun is up. It’s Sunday.I can see the sunlight passing through the trees and everything else is silent, like it’s supposed to beI suppose . . . What I do now and what I say here,of course, I hope this is […] | Continue reading
I remember seeing a picture –maybe we spoke about this?or, maybe we didn’t;however, I think the relevance of this picture is true to life. I think that the picture is brilliant –no wait; the picture is powerfuland the reason why is the picture is calledThe Power of Stepping Away. … | Continue reading
We have entered into these negotiations for life with the best intentions. We are here to negotiate the terms of our next chapter, and, therefore, going forward, we have to come to a clear agreement, and therefore collectively, we have to come to a decision that from this moment … | Continue reading
I go back to those dreams again, in youth, but not young and yet, I am somewhere at a place where I experienced somewhat of a rebirth, like life coming back to us, orlike springtime, when the northern hemisphere comes alive again and all that was wilted and gray, returns to color … | Continue reading
Here I am in the soft hue of morning, the sun is on its way, and the sky is about to change,which is pretty of course. Then again, everything changes. Everything moves, even when we are still, all of us are moving, continuously, ongoing, and endlessly around on this big thingI ca … | Continue reading
And, I begin where I am . . .I’m standing here at the face of a new day, waiting for the sun to prevail, and looking to make a move or two, just to keep my hopes alive. I am north of where I was and yet, there’s a piece of me, southbound, where the […] | Continue reading
1) The horse moved through flesh that evening, and another soul forfeited its right to the kingdom the next morning, just to feel a bit closer to heaven Understand? Before next, it was sunrise and in the absence of presence, there would be no recollection of anything so perfect, … | Continue reading
I remember what I thought when I got into this ride.I know what this trop began and I know where I was when I agreed to these terms.I remember the promise I made to myself, which was more than just to keep myself accountable. When I began, I decided that if I was going to […] | Continue reading
I want to be crazy. Yes, absolutely crazyI want to be perfectly crazy, like we used to be,way back in the day before life took its turn and age took away the chaos. I want to be like we were, back when adrenaline and rebellion would pulse through our veinsand back when were our f … | Continue reading
There is no then, only now, and now that we find ourselves in the fold of something new, or now that we seesomething developing right before our eyes, we look back and wonder about what our life would be like, if only we paid attention. I say this while looking at the sky, which … | Continue reading
Whether I am right or wrong is truly of no consequence. Besides, life is more than we think and half of the time, in fairness, nobody knows about who was right or wrong. In fact, in most cases, all we are is varies of opinion Then again, at some point, we’ll all find out the […] | Continue reading
This book of prose has been my way of setting the clocks back, just so I can catch up with myself by returning to the basic aspect of what I started this journey. I am looking for something. I am searching for something which is right here, and with me now, and yet; there is […] | Continue reading
Knowing If we didn’t know, or, if we didn’t have the capacity to understand or the ability to see, deeply, or at least deeper than the surface levels, and if we were blind in the sense that we couldn’t see the world around us or know about the weight from the different calamities … | Continue reading
Perhaps I am the same age now as my teachers were when I was a child.I was young and precocious. And them, they were older and less hopeful, tired, less than patient and more than anxious to get out of a life that they never seemed to bargain for. Perhaps I understand more about … | Continue reading
I What I am about to share with you is in some ways career suicide because while I supposedly work in an updated world of diversity, equity, and yes, inclusive ideas that are supposed to help bring people together instead of marginalize or separate us as different – the truth is, … | Continue reading